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I've realized that i think of weird things at weird times of the day..
Don't believe me? take these on for instance..
Couple of nights back I was lying in bed at 3am in the morning trying
to sleep, and it crossed my mind that in Mas lows Hierarchy of
needs, my brother ken need only be on the bottom level. As quoted
by him, but rephrased by me in a manner less crude.
"All i need in life is sexual companionship and booze."
It's pretty apparent which parts i have adjusted for the sake of keeping
my blog smut free for you readers. :) So we can narrow ken's needs
in life to one, the need for inebriation and 2, the need for well you
get the picture.
Second strange thought at a strange place. Whilst taking a piss before
class today I wondered if every belief that i had about what love
should be was wrong and if maybe, just maybe everyone else had the
right idea. Of course this intriguing cerebral brainstorm in front of the
urinal lasted the whole of a minute and a half before i was done and
washed my hands before promptly heading to class.
Just the random thoughts that litter my day.. :)
Monday, June 08, 2009
My posts come few and far between these days only
because of the usual school and work.
Ken and I were at the Ngee Ann track for a run after school
and on the track were this dad and his 2 sons running laps.
Dad was teaching his sons about how to run and making them
do timed circuits. I thought of dad, and how he loved to run.
I stopped and superimposed a memory created in my head of
"If that were me and ken with dad".
I smiled and the scene continued to unfurl in my recesses.
How great it would be and how happy we would a feel to share a
moment, us, just the guys. As the mental thread wore on, my
smile grew heavy into a sense of guilt and longing, bringing me
back to that oh so familiar feeling that comes around every once
in a while but never, ever really leaves. The one that really boils
down to this.
" Time is a commodity no one has enough of. Live and love those
around you with an unbridled passion. For it is when our times
are over, that the memories are worth more than this world
can offer."
The feeling of guilt and longing still stop by whenever I catch a
glimpse of what could or might have been. But i don't really mind.
They remind me of his life, and that i need to live mine.
Monday, May 18, 2009
2 A's and 2 A-'s. *Shrugs*, not my best work but
given how slack I've been this semester, I'd say
I did alright. Gonna do better this sem. :)
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
I know that when it comes to exam periods and busy busy
times of my life, I get grumpy and complain that I wish
I could do more of the things I wanted to like playing guitar
or blogging.
Well here is the deal, I've partied out last week AND worked
hard as well, so you don't take me for a complete slacker. =)
And I've spent the last 2 days pretty much bumming around the
house, playing guitar and well.. Blogging. And when it all boils
down to it, its been a pretty terrible boring 2 days innit..?
And the lesson to take away boys and girls..? Being busy might
not be the most fun thing at the point in time, but the rewards
make it worth the time and effort. Also, taking a break and doing
nothing can be awesome.... .. .. in small doses...
Let me see, Let me see.. What do i have lined up..?
School, work, giving tuition, and driving..
that sounds about right don't you think? :)
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Watching "No Reservations" on tv is one of my guilty pleasures..
Even when repeated episodes come on, I sit intently soaking up
every quick quip and insightful comment Anthony Bourdain conjures.
And through the episode, I search for insight to apply to my own life
and my view of the world. Like how passion for life and living is a
function of being curious to know more of the world. And how, through
travel and opening our horizons we truly find out not how big the world
is, but how small we are in it.
He really is one of my heroes.
And i think one of the reasons that IS, is because I see parts of myself in
him. Cynical and bitter, but with the taste for adventure and ability to appreciate
both the fine and simple things in life with an undaunted passion.
Moving on..
My constant hectic lifestlye has caused this post to be long overdue. And
its just one of those things that have been buzzing at the back of my head
for the last 2 months or so. I am beginning to question my take on commitment.
I think my recent dating and relationship history presents a pattern of
me distancing myself whenever things get too serious. Truth of the matter is
that I cannot put myself back in the place of a serious relationship and haven't
been able to for the longest time.
I don't know if that should be a cause for any concern, but on the same note it
is a little unsettling. With that said, I look forward to relishing this coming break,
especially after dragging my brain through last semesters modules.
The night will belong to us, and only us,
if it is meant to be.