ErM... Happy..? Me..? nonono.. I don't DO happy...

So the strangest thing this week... i'm ACTUALLY enjoying myself at camp.. can you believe that..?
its weird.. i dunno.. Maybe i'm in that Pre Graduating mood.. 2 weeks left and BSLC will be over..
where i go from there is.. Well not in my hands.. might get posted 2 a support unit.. or go on 2 ASLC to command an infantry unit.. or maybe even cross over 2 ocs..?
Yeah RIGHT~..! like thats gonna happen~..

Another thing.. I heard a secret.. but details aren't confirmed so don't wanna go blowing it outta proportion.. not too sure whats going on in Foxtrot anyway.. and now its just all hearsay so yah.. will break the news when its Confirmed..

This week at camp was.. fun~! Had the flu on tuesday but that passed soon enuff.. erm... Did additional Obstacle course.. and went to the tear gas chamber.. Went for my Wanderer navigation test...did Confidence obstacle course.. Tonnes of fun shit... crawling in the mud.. canvas jump..~ the GAS mask..oh COOL..~ and my group found like all the checkpoints for wanderer~! with 2 plus hours to spare which i spent sleeping under a tree~.. haha.. and i caught this HugE Praying Mantis
which i'm keeping in a pringles can..! feeding him bees...named him isaac.. haha.. He is one viscious greedy lil bastard... haha

Don't get me wrong.. not that i'm not gald 2 be home.. Ahhh.. feels good.. Probably will go skate a lil later.. ken sam and tris are throwing a BBQ later.. which HAS alcohol.. so it PROMISES to be good.. Grin.. happy national day pple.. and i'm not saying this cuz i'm all patroitic now.. enjoy the holiday.. = )

Back...

This week sure passed fast.. the usual outfield on monday and tuesday.. and Grandslam from wednesday onwards.. It just HAD to rain didn't it.. as if being outfield and feeding mosquitos all day wasn't bad enuff.. Camo on my face.. mud all over.. dirty uniform.. doing drills.. Eating COmBAT rations.. Ugh.. going for marches with our fieldpacks on.. you can only imagine how 7 smelly,dirty guys with fieldpacks and rifles squeeze under ONE teenie tiny basha in the bloody rain to try and sleep..
Its something i NEVER wanna do ever again..i'll tell you that..

Right.. went on the company trip to chevron right after grandslam..
I was on overload.. it was crazy.. i had to do the book-in\book-out book.. and plan the acts for our platoon.. and perform and item which i HADN'T come up with yet.. it was crazy.. but managed to pull it off.. and everything went pretty well.. i didn't drink a whole lot though..
maybe 7.. 8 beers..? 2 tequila shots.. played some pool .. lost a couple.. won a couple.. shared a smoke.. and i was off.. didn't know i was so tired.. dropped off at town.. walked arnd.. and went straight home..

sat on the couch.. watched some tube.. and i just passed out.. the next thing i know.. mom wakes me up the next morning.. complaining that i smell like booze and cigs.. grin.. got my morning hug soon after..
so here i am.. back home.. just showered.. still in jeans.. haha..

Checked out some upcoming movies..
Tonnes of SWEET flicks coming up.. erm..
Meet the Fockers..~ Alien Vs Predator..~ Resident Evil Apocolypse..~
harold and kumar go to white castle.. christmas with the kranks..
Oh.. oh~! & Blade Trinity..!!!
Damn i love this show.. vampires.. hot actress.. ass kicking.. cool weapons.. I mean whats NOT to like...!
anyway i'm off to grab some breakfast.. for the first time in 3 days.. i'm STARVED...

"Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you

As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die to
I'd die too"

p.s for those who got time and wanna check out sum realli cool trailers.. go to http://www.apple.com/trailers/ !

Tired...
 
 
Should have would have could have..

All the voices screaming at me...  just want to be free..
Take me back to where i came from.. lost and scared..
Look all we done crumbling upon us..
Test my arms.. kick like crazy..
i've been trying way too long..
Only push away to find you..
and i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm not yours.
Get off my chest.. the story ends
Close ur mind shelter the pieces..
i'm the one u want to lose..
No other path for us to choose.. 
 
Why am i only.. Falling softly..
Reach for a hand.. pull to the end..
Awake and see.. inside of me..
Wings Spread wide.. Fly to the sky..
 
Soaring so fast.. Spin through the sky..
Want to escape.. Is it too late..
Can u feel the clouds surround you..
Phoenix ignites and burns us through..
 

Love Is...

Hi.. its me.. andrew..Owner of this here blog..
remember..? its been 2.. 3 weeks..?
know i haven't posted in the longest time..
Do people still come here..?
Got company confinement next week and
thought i'd jot down some thoughts..

Lemmie just start..
Love Is.. for those of you who DO know..
i'm not talking about the nike AIR JORDAN ads..
as much as i love em.. so here we go..

Its totally weird..
if you believe in love at first sight.. ur naive..
and a love that lasts a lifetime..? ur unrealistic..
so Where exactly are we..? Love is..? love is...
Well i don't know.. but if i were to guess..?
it be in the present.. but thats just me..
and well its got me nowhere..

Anyone caught that french film "love me if you dare"?
just watched it at home.. and something hit close to home.
There comes a point where love stops being a game..
Wish i had known earlier.. anyone who knows me knows i love games..
and for most of my life its been nothing MORE than a game..
Well.. Until now.. Who knew that it hurt so much..?
think that i torture myself over this all the time..
When the games stopped.. and i seriously looked at it again..
this path just took on a long and bumpy ride..
On many occasions it worries me that i put so much heart into it..
knowing that if it doesn't work out its gonna hurt like hell..
Its crossed my mind to just leave.. no traces.. or goodbyes..
just like before.. cuz its scary..
but no.. in the greater scheme of things..
it pays to follow dreams.. well at least i believe so..

Has anyone read "The Alchemist"?
i had time this week in camp and finished the book..
it talks about love , life and being..
its pretty insightful to say the least..
so here i'll end off.. got alot running through my head..
sorry if the post sounds choppy..
see you people in 2 weeks..

"The Worst feeling in the world is to be surrounded by people and still feel totally alone."

Empty

Took out the lyrics from the last post..
don't know what came over me..
can't believe i wrote that..
it just looked bad when i read it again..

Feeling.. well.. adrift.. a lil bit tense..
army getting to me.. mood swings.. lots of stuff..
*grin* i'm just irritable today la..

Gonna get out of the house..
probably grab a beer or 2...
or 3... Maybe 4..
well u get my drift..
Gonna sit back and listen 2 some THRICE..
Good god.. fantastic band.. Story of the year too..
Incubus.. Hoobastank.. Think i'll just..
erm.."SWITCH OFF".. i need a break..

Later pple.. i'm outta here..
Sweet Dreams..

"Thrice.Ultra Blue"

Unabashedly pursue,
the Truth that we cannot deny
A revelation shining through,
orchestration Adonai
A revolution ultra-blue,
and a melodic battle cry
And though you say there'll be no coup,

we'll never know unless we
Try to see it through,
and find a different point of view,
one where faith is not taboo
And we'll all learn to see the world as new