BookinG In..

I am.. well going to book in now..
and i'd thought i'd leave a post..
i'm feeling strangly down..
thought that i'd be used to book in's by now..
but well i dunno.. down down down..
had a great weekend.. i love u all..


Feels like i died for you..
Living this life anew..
Thru this life its fill..
If you keep still..
it goes on and on and on..

So i'm back home this week..
well till sunday.. then i gotta book in again..
so noticed i haven't posted in ages.. thought i would..
so ocs.. well.. still don't like the place much..
don't like the instructors.. the rules or anything..
personally.. i'm not totally comfortable with the pple either..
but as usual.. nothin i can do but put up with it..

Right.. so i shaln't brood over army.. = )
being at home today was.. weird..
the peace of mind is insane.. feels really good..
not having to run on a timetable..
getting to do what i wanna do insted of having to live up
to my instructors expectations all the time..
so many times i wonder if its really worth it..
everybody says.. "Oh.. OCS.. wow.."
They have no idea.. Golf Wing is just tough..
Looking at my platoon mates..
i see how much sweat and heart they put in..
and we've JUST got to pro term..
it makes me wonder.. pro term is meant to be touhger..
how am i gonna make it..? Honestly..
just gotta suck it up.. take what they give u..
right wrong.. good bad.. u just take it.. know what i mean..?

Haha.. i seems all i CAN talk about is army..
i apologise.. so i skated today.. haven't skated in ages..
watched the 411 skate vid just before going down..
so i was pretty psyched..
didn't land a k-grind todae as i intended to..
but i landed a sweet 5-0..
learnt fakie bigspin in a day..
some kick and heel flips..
almost got 1 noseslide..
basically had fun just crusing arnd..
goofing off with mike and sam..

Went to chinablack last night..
it was.. AHEm.. eventful.. grin..
had some drinks.. danced a lil..
met some old marist pals..
some girls.. haha..
but suprisingly i left real early..
anyway.. gonna go play sum guitar..
rock on everyone..

"There Is"

This vacation's useless..
These white pills aren't kind..
I've given a lot of thought on this 13-hour drive..
I miss the grinding concrete where we sat past 8 or 9..
And slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights..
I've given a lot of thought to the nights we use to have..
The days have come and gone..
Our lives went by so fast..
I faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor..
Where i laid and told you, but you sweared you loved me more..
Do you care if i don't know what to say..
Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me..
Will i shake this off pretend its all okay..
That there's someone out there who feels just like me..
There is..

Those notes you wrote me..
I've kept them all..
I've given a lot of thought of how to write you back this fall..
With every single letter in every single word..
There will be a hidden message about a boy that loves a girl..
Do you care if i don't know what to say..
Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me..
Will i shake this off,
pretend its all okay..
that there's someone out there who feels just like me..
There is..

Do you care if i don't know what to say?
Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me..
Will i shake this off, pretend its all okay..
That there's someone out there who feels just like me..
Do you care if i don't know what to say?
Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me..
Will i shake this off, pretend its all okay..
That there's someone out there who feels just like me..
There is..

21 Km..

Okay.. so my legs have NEVER been through such torture ever..Its crazy now that i think about it... it still boggles the mind..i mean.. to me it just never occured that i could run 21km..or even 5km.. or 6km.. haha.. well u get my point.. i just can't really see myself running unless ABSOLUTLY necessary..but any 2hrs and 7 mins ain't bad timing at all..

During the run i found.. that i ran faster and pushed harder.. because my friends were there.. I was SO happy to see my SISPEC buddies and sergeants.. we laughed and joked.. and i saw friends from maris stella.. It was really just like old times.. and these guys just kept my morale up.. so i ran even faster when i got tired.. Strange huh..? Friends mean the world to me.. Thinking of the pple suppporting me just kinda made the jarring in my ankles and the cramping of my calves melt away.. if even for that one second.. So yah~.. i love u all.. but damn thats one hell of a long run..
Glad i made it.. but good god.. NEVER AGAIN..~ My feet are begging me..

So ANYWAY i've ranted on long enough about the run.. So when i came home... HE was staring at me with those Glaring eyes.. I could feel its bloodlust..one wrong move and he would leap for my neck..his tall lean body prone to strike in a heartbeat.. thats right~! all 4kgs of my new Miniature snauzer..( is that how u spell it???) Haha.. yeah.. mom and jie decided to get a dog.. cool huh..? Its adorable.. but its realli causing major family tension between..
Ken ("The Anti-Dog") and Jie("the Pro-Dog")

To me it doesn't matter either way.. i could live with or without him.. i mean.. i'm in camp 5 days a week... anyway.. the guys are waiting.. gonna go acs barker and skate..Oh and Btw.. i just got the new Papa Roach Cd.. and its a good 4\5 Stars man.. A must listen.. Rock on pple... rock on..

Ah...~

Okay.. a weird name for a title.. = )
but lemmie explain.. just had one of those days.
Recently these days come few and far apart..
Still Blur? Alright.. its one of those days that..
well everything just flows.. pieces fit..
basically its a GOOD day (thats for the lay.. LAYMAN!)

Pick ups of the day..? had a really wicked skate session with the guys today.. i haven't skated in ages and was realli rusty, but with the Rush from watching skate videos in the morning, i went hard and fast.. 50-50, 5 O, kickflips.. big ass ollies.. even tried a tre-flip and nollie bigspin.. haha.. ken and sam are pretty good now.. wish i could practice with them and learn new tricks.. but sigh..such is the life of a NATION protector... grinx.

also picked up my issue of FHM US.. with ALysissa Milano on the cover..! *drool* joe will be totally jealous.. haha.. i'll let u look at it.. BUT no touching.. haha..Damn she's fine.. both me and joe worship the ground she walks on.. haha alright.. i MAY be exaggeratin Just a LiL.. but she's one of the top few in my list..

Hmmx.. just came from newton food center.. saw trina there.. talked awhole LOTTA rubbish.. from shoes.. to why alyssia milano is so hot( y can't she see it!?) sheesh.. to her complaining about my JEANS.. AHem.. haha.. ANYWAY.. moving AWAY from that topic..

I'm back home now.. and well thought i'd blog now.. its about 5.. gonna sleep soon.. gotta wake ken up early tmr to study and do my OPS orders homework.. for now i'm headin to my bed.. and gonna curl up under my sheets..

Goodnight everyone..