IT HURTS BUDDY..

Thats all boy can say.. Over And over..
Hand Quivering.. He can barely hold back tears..
He looks up to the sky..
boy is not meant for love..
Romantic "i love yous"..
now mean less than a dime
perfect broken if you don't mind..

He'd gladly tear out his still beating heart..
lest that will stop the pain..
He yearns to hear her voice.. once..
here's to you his world haf gone..
before his eyes.. an eternal bond..
can't live without.. you..
i Need Her.. She's falling far..

Lost and seeking guidence..
anyone.. anything.. a sign.. a voice..
vision impared by the longing..
he just wants a yesterday...
when everything was okay..
a tomorrow thats a dream..
how perfect it would seem..

The Buring sensation in your heart
That words cannot describe..
The cut made by love is
deeper.. more painful than any other..
But Boy.. remember..
As you sleep tonight with tears in your eyes..
That time Heals all wounds..
Heart and body..





Boy..
its you against the world..
u feel so alone..
tomorrow seems like an impossibility..
but you'll live another day..
With faith in the imperfect..
And Tears that aren't worth it..

Back To Square 1...

Hope you are doing well.. Life treatin u alright.. ..? = )
Been Hitting the clubs and drinks alot lately..
Hope its not becoming a habit.. guess at the back of my head..
i'm always looking to bump into a familiar face..
~hahaha..~ the occasional cute girl..
its strange.. kinda boring nowadays..
Don't know whats gottn over me.. its like.. shoot and Miss..~
mmMmm.. think i need a new crowd to club with..
test the waters..? mm..? hahaha..

On a Different note.. Heading back to Bmt..
Done at guards.. HOPE i've left some impression on the men..
first time in an operational unit.. Learned so much..
would convert to guards, given the chance..
hahaha.. and also ord..? mmMm.. yupp..
That means i'll be bumming arnd the house..
Pple~! If ya got fun stuff to do.. CALL me...~
club.. climbing.. skating.. whatever man.. = )
Ciao~

~ReleasE~

Going out drinking again tonight..
but its all good.. i guess.. probably should watch it huh..?
mmMm.. have been going a lil overboard lately..
the thought of it pulling me to the edge has always been appealing..
never coming back..? Just Letting it all go...

The only time i get the same "high" is when i'm breaking out
on my dear sarah.. playing it loud For the world to hear..
playing the power chords that should resonate through our lives..
As if the entire stage spotlighted on little.. ole.. me..

Perfect dream.. isn't it..?

"This Is Who We Are"

Between the future and the past tense

Lies the present and the distance

So you think we're never coming back

Scoring points for passion and persistence

Between the lines and the highway

Lies the danger and the safety

You never thought this was gonna last

I always knew you'd never take it back

Between the sadness and the smile

Lies the flicker of the fire

You always said this never hurt you

I always said you were a liar

With the all the towers and the wires

There still lies a little silence

Two hearts and one connection

One voice lacks emotion now

Instead of flowers like words that never mattered

Close it off forget about the sadness

(close it off forget about the sadness)

He always said she should have tried crying

Blaming him, as she was lying down

Placebo..

My God.. i Saw HIM.. Brian Molko..
Placebo was Absolutly amazing..
i'm just lost for words..
they're playing, so much spirit..
the energy.. so cold and dead..
i LOVE it...~

was at the ~Mtv Fashionably loud~ event..
and .. PLACEBO performed..
i've been waiting for this since i was sec 2~!..
It was as powerful as i always knew it would be..

so good...




so good...


Wish i could rock as much as he does...
better start Putting my fingers to the fretboard..
play faster and harder than ever beforeee.....