Smack Dab...

MOrning everyone..
had a long day at work but strangly i can't get to sleep..
i revalation hit me just now on my walk back from work..
its about realtionships.. now i love trina very much..
Sweetie don't over think anything i say k..?
these just happen to be perspectives that ran past me.. <3
and anyone else who might take away something insightful?
ur more than welcome to..

i've always thought of myself as a great boyfriend..
the type who would literally do anything to MAKE IT work..
change myself.. talk.. be more of this or less of that..
here is revalation number one..
Choose to have it work or not work.. powerfully..
what would be if it does work..?
is it a bad thing that i doesn't work..?
Failing in a realtioship doesn't make you a bad boyfriend OR girlfriend..
its just what YOU want.. and again.. choose powerfully..
questions like.. are you really happy..? can you be yourself..?
can you love him/her for who they really are..?
it could be as simple as choosing powerfully..
not based on fear or lonelyness or failure..

number two.. who are you with your partner..?
i realise when i'm with trina..
i'm alot more serious.. more practical.. and strangly cautious..
i try to be supportive and i'm focused as a person..
now question.. is that who i really am..?
does she make me act this way..?
hell NO! not at all but i choose to be like this..
this is where i goofed..
who do you let yourself be in front of the one you love..
i'm silly.. charming.. directed.. relaxed..
and i don't show it to her.. my bad.. = )
so... who are you with that someone..?

remember.. not to love someone for who they will be or
what you want them to be..
but really.. for who they are..

that Iz all.. thank you ladies and gents..
i think i finally feel that sleepy bug coming on..
Lots of love.. ME~!

Morning all~~!

I just got back from work.. its about... 6.30Am..
and todat being rouge's 3rd annaversary..
the floor staff got to drink when customers offered..
Man.. i had so muhc martell and chivas its not funny..
and smirnoff and long island tea too.. ugh...
i have to do an important song and dance audition tomorrow..
and to be honest.. i had to enter my password 3 times to enter blogger..
so sad right..? sigh all my regulars ask me to drink..
lim beh buah sai.. lim jiu wo ai buay tahan.. lim beh kana nah kong.. (hokkien)
one guy had me finish a glass of martell and a Teensie bit of green tea.. omg..
super had sia..drinking water now to sober up.. shit.. the stuff i get myself into..

well i'm gonna stay up and practice my dance routine till the audition tomorrow at 830am..
for those of you who think i have it easy..
i'm about to smack you over the head..

anyways lotsa love..
and a happy sunday for all of you..
its off to the showers for me..

Learning to fly..

Life's funny isn't it.. all that jazz about being positive..
mumbo jumbo of but a past we all try to live against..
i'm looking to the sky to save me.. looking for a sign of life..
foo fighters really is my core band..
the first influential rock pop band that really hit me..

Friends are in pain.. all fighting battles in their head of what is and what should be..
Greatfulness and aknowledgment for all things big and small is where we should look..
i aknowledge having a great supportive family..
a mother that is working so hard to provide for her kids.. true greatness..
a sister that never lets me forget how immense my possibilities for life and greatness are..
a brother that would give his arm for me if i asked.. maybe 2..
a dad that worked hard to provide for his family the best he could.. and set the bar High in the sky for us kids.. showing me that though you left big shoes to fill.. you were just wearing them in for me.. god bless you..! and thanks for the genes~~!

True friends that love me for who i am.. cooky and bizarre.. with a dash of insanity..
a girlfriend that has picked up the pieces time after time.. it isn't easy for her.. but she keeps pushing forth for a magnificant future.. cuz she see's it.. its foggy but its there.. I appreciate it babe~~!

and you.. for taking the time to read this..
what are you greatful for..?

Oh Baby..

This post is for my Lil princess..
She's Absoultly amazing..
and i love her so much i'm kinda left speechless.. hahaha..
But Like many other girls her concepts for life leave me pulling out my hair..
And Here's the thing.. most guys like myself just will never get it.. = )
She is a handfull i'll tell you that.. hahaha

Absolutly blinding.. I keep banging my head against the wall..
cuz i DON'T get it..!!!! hahaha.. sigh.. sadness.. = )
but it's all good.. i'm taking it in stride and having a good laugh..

ladies.. You gals live in a totally different RELAM from us guys..
Here's a tip.. give your man a break once in awhile yah..?
even if its letting get away with little things..
Men in general are a simple race.. and we are easy to please too..
an ice cold beer with friends..
walking around the house in our underwear..
my personal favourate.. not doing ANYTHING..
and we love to make our girlfriends or wives happy..
you just gotta tell us how.. = )

And Although her logic beseaches me..

I can't help but love her..!

now THATS strange logic..

Lotsa Love!! i'm going to crawl back into bed...
uuuhhhhh....

Wow.. Quick Post..

i've just got home.. and what a day at work..
we had a function at Rouge today..
and it finished at 1.00.. so clean up and pack up done..
So we head down.. and most of us stop by acid bar..
and the band is calling for staff to come up and play..
so i'm like.. Jas( my manager).. i play u sing..?
lets go for it balls.. i play krama police by radiohead and he sings..
haha no doubt its a lil sketchy.. but it was so FUN!
in front of a 20+ crowd.. hahaha..
WHoOoOo~~!

ANd.. on top of that..
my manager told me i could start basic bar training on wed..!
well.. we're short of floor staff so i gotta double up and serve drinks too..
But well.. its a start

nites nties...
Lotsa love!