Guess Who's Back...!

Nothing like a STRONG hinting from my girlfriend
to get my ass moving.. Love You Dear~!
and the Almighty Birthday Is upon us..
To be prefectly frank.. i really don't keep track of my birthday..

it comes like it does every year..
un-assumingly creeping up on me..
well.. another night out with the boys is in order..
and i just wanna have a relaxing night..
and not embarass myself.. ugh..

work has been keeping me terribly tired..
and fell sick recently so that didn't help..
and guess what.. school starts on may the 3!!
so i'm totally psyched about that..

i'm going to head to bed and rest up before tonight..
lotsa love pple

Happy St Patricks people..!

Even if it was yesterday..
bring out the Guiness and the shamrock clovers..!
I have a picture of myself in a Gigantic
Guniess hat with clover leaves for the rim..
BUT.. thats just for me.. and maybe tris.. and trina..
well.. then again I MIGHT post it up..

I had a pretty good day..
Went to watch 300 with baby..
shared a Hearty fish soup..
picked up my 3 tiny martini glasses
and shaker glass for the home bar..
ate ice cream.. had a salad..
came home and napped..
AND out for dinner with mommy..
prawn noodles.. wanton mee..
har gao.. prok rib and chee cheong fun..
oh.. and tea si ping to top it off..

kinda heading to bed
but got my nose buried
in the new bartending book ken bought..

All in all a Perfect day..

Haven't posted in awhile..
Lets see if i still remember how to go about this..
= ).. wow..

its amazing how i turn to my guitar and blog for solice..
to be quite frank.. i'm feelin bummed out..
my mom is also doing her degree now..
and she's on the com working on her 2000 word assignment..
even though she's sick..
she's been taking power naps and even fell asleep by the com..
told her to get some rest but assignment is due tomorrow..
all i could do was encourage her.. and she appreciated it..
but its times like this i feel helpless..

Strangly trina is going through a similar predicament..
assignment due and a test to study for on top of that..
she's really tired.. i can hear it in her voice..
i'd give anything or do anything to help..
and again.. i feel terrible that i can't do shit to help..

i'm worried that tiredness will hurt these 2 people i love..
physically wearing on their minds and bodies..

will to press on.. a page at a time a word at a time..
absolutly astounding..

hold on tight..

I have to tell myself not to break down..
it isn't right.. i have to be strong through it all..
i have to.. the consequence i know all too well..

i think.. i've done all i can.. but breakdowns are breakdowns..
its done.. and she's lost 'herself' in me..
i thought it was about rebirth.. a new person..
but i lost sight of the obvious.. she wants herself.. not a new self..

it isn't fair.. but nothing in life is..
she is right.. worlds apart..
old school and new school..
tugging in different directions..
learning comes from a non judgemental place..
traditionalism against libralism..
It was too hard to give up ideas where you stood..

i look back.. and see a mountain range..
many we've crossed.. dangerous and painful..
trudgging against the snow.. we fought cliff after cliff..
you've had enough.. and i'm ready to keep you warm..
with my own body..

eyes roll up.. the fight is lost against the cold..
and i died inside.. frozen tears from how i couldn't make a difference

THis Post is meant for myself and no one else..
Purely just to air my thoughts of no rhyme or direction..
That Jesus himself was a man with a vision..
one that stood for openess forgivness and love..
to never impose an idea..
but yet be heard across a world through such a magnitute of time and spaces..
that leaves me speechless..

He himself brought revolutionry concepts to man..
As one himself.. that altered the behaviour and action of billions..
that it is now physically impossible not to have ever been affected..

Never judge a man till you've walked a mile in his shoes..
That statement always seemed to put things in perspective..
but here's my spin on it..
this concept seems to pull to the physicality of things..

Here's my own take..
walking a day in his life might physically give you an insight to
what he is subjected to and obstacles in his life.. BUT
Its not so much a day in his or her life that would change your world..
Seeing the world through his eyes.. and the thought processes in his head..
the perceptions he has.. limitations and fears.. his whole life..
as he would see it..and coming back to yours..
now that's what alters a life..

a day in the mind of.. not the life of..