Recovery..

Its been 4 days since i finished my exams..
And i've been working on all 4 days since then..
So i'm still trying to make up for days of loss sleep..
Well.. happy to say i think i'll do pretty good.. = )

i'm missing Sophie and Tris..
Things just feel incomplete without both of you..
Ironic how 2 people i love are so far away..
*sigh*

Anyway enough with the Moping..
i'm gonna grab carls jr lunch with the little bro..
Ahh.. tris carls jr used to be our thing man..

Much Love..

Marley And Me..

So this book has been my companion over the last 3 weeks..
on the busrides to and from school..
and quiet moments before classes..
i chuckled as i gingerly read page after page..
always careful to keep the book in its prestine condition..
Taken on a journey with the writer on his highs and lows..
scenes from the book playing a visual image in my head..

So i'm reaching the end of the book..
and one paragraph in particular..
This one paragraph reaches out and grabbes me..
The writer is at ground zero for 9-11 the night after..
And 2 emotions stand out amongst the turmoil..

Pride.. and Humility..

Pride in the everyday people that stepped up in crisis..
selfless individuals willing to risk life and limb..
To help a stranger..
Humility in appreciation of life..
and regonizing the fraility that all of us
no matter how big or small.. can be broken..

The boundless capacity of the human ceases to amaze..
Good night everyone..

'Finding someone and knowing they are all you wanted..
makes love easy.. '

I actually heard that on a sitcom i was watching..
haha.. but it really made sense to me..
Thats all men really want.. well.. all i want..
a happy easy going fun relationship..

I want to post on something different today..
but i have to get Back to typing my english essay.. = )
*sigh*
Night everyone..

Another tough day's work in acid bar..
on one of the longest days of my life..

As you can probably tell from my past posts..
its been an emo week..
and now i am just tired..

like a soldier falls of fatigue after battle..
i too am on my knees..
eyes shut tight to rest my eyes and possibly my mind..
and i muster a last resignated sigh..
and wonder where we go from here..

Sometimes i step back..
and i catch myself thinking and worrying..
getting insecure and restless..
about things that really shouldn't bother me at all..
and it sucks.. emotionally i let these things eat at me..
leaving me with little if not nothing at the end of the day..

i have a tonne to get done this week..
i need to remember to smile..= D
and not let things eat away at me..

But first.. instant noodles and a short nap..!
i need my strength!

Its been awhile since i leaned over the balcony..
Whisky on the rocks on the side..
Gazing outward into the midnight sky..
The clouds add comforting whisps of shade..

The night air is cool and refreshing as i take it all in..
instantly my shoulders feel lighter
and the world stands peaceful..
And i begin to reflect..

Looking out, I think about the past and look towards the future..
and i realise this..

Life is really all about accepting the past and letting it go..
Sometimes we grip tight to the happy and sad memories..
And it runs around our heads and grips around our hearts..
It keeps us sacred and confused.. and we never move on..
But we feel safe.. always knowing what was..

This illusion of safety masks our eyes..
And comfort and stegnancy reside,
Where new hope and opportunity should be..

Honor and forgive the good and the bad.. breathe out..
and let it go.. immediatly you'll feel an empty space open up..
It feels so awkward to have nothing.. a blank canvas..
and you start making your way.. a new way..
One that will ultimatly lead to bigger and better things..

Its been awhile since i made such a post...
it feels good.. There is no love where fear resides..

Andrew

Dear dad.. i miss you so.. thanks for this gift..
you didn't have to die for us to be happy.. it wasn't worth it..
this post is for you..
thanks for being such a driving force in my life..
even after ur gone..

Your Son..