Grant that I may seek to console, rather than be consoled. To understand, rather than to be understood. And to love, rather than be loved. For it is in giving that we receive.

We all need a little reality check now and again. (:
Here i am, supposed to be studying but I got caught up,
as usual. I'm not a Godly man, but when a verse like this
comes along every so often, I can't help but stop and
admire the truth in the word. We are in an age trapped
looking inwards at ourselves. We want new things, want
to look good, grumble at our circumstances, don't treasure
what we have and drown ourselves in self pity.

I'm not being a self-righteous pompous ass on a pedestal.
All I am saying is, look at yourself. Aren't we spoiled? It
has come to a point where we can't look past ourselves to
others. I am sad, I want this, My life sucks. All the "I's"
and "My's". I always believe in the Confucian saying,

"One who cares less for himself, has more to care for others."

And rightfully so. We must surpass self because we have
a lot in life. Nice beds, meals, phones, money in the bank.
You will never know how to appreciate anything, until
you know what its like to have nothing. Some people will
never know what that is like.

Crystal glasses..

I remember looking through Georgia's facebook profile and something she said really resonated in my mind. It was an answer for one of those interview questions that went, "if you could be somebody for a day who would you be?" Her answer blew me away. She said she would be an African kid for a day, because it would teach her to appreciate what she has.

We, and i mean all of us, live day by day doing what we wanna do when we wanna do it. Go for a holiday, buy a new handphone, an ipod, whatever choices we make we rarely give a second passing thought. Me included, sometimes I feel down about life and stuff, but fuck man, we are really all just too high up in the clouds to appreciate what we have instead of looking at those who have nothing.

I'm not an advocate, and i'm not gonna jump on a plane and dedicate my life to building shelters but think about it people, we have it good, now we just need to not be so narrow minded and full of self centered, self pitying crap to be happy. Can't have something, not happy with life, don't sit there and cry about it, do something and stop living for yourself.

Drew
XoXo

Scandalous

What a day. I've been working at club Nana for 3 months now and i'll share something that happened to me today. I was doing my thing at the Bar when one of the girls beaconed me. When i leaned in to ask what she needed, the buxomy 27 year old kissed me and asked if i had a girlfriend. When i said no, she smiled cheekly and asked if i was free to get together after work. Thoughts raced through my head as i lied through my teeth and declined. *Sigh*

This is the second time she's offered to spend the night with me, and twice i have declined. This time i felt like a real fool about it too. Word of her generous offer spread amongst the staff quickly and soon i was the one that turned down free sex with a hot older lady. Honestly it is not that i didn't want to, God knows I haven't been laid in ages and I would have Loved to spend the night. I began to contemplate the reason for my answer. Why...? Honestly, what man wouldn't have said yes. All i could come up with was that, I had a conscience. Fellow bartenders poked fun and said i was naive and that bartenders didn't have morals when it came to getting laid.

I guess had the circumstances been different my answer might have varied, but given the same situation, the funny thing is, i still would have said no. And that would have been a very grudging no at that. Do i still feel like an idiot, yes. And here I am at home alone blogging, when i could have been having a night of wild sex. Life sure is strange

The Pillars of Life.

I'm just rounding up my revision and its 5am in the morning.
Morning people, i have been neglecting my blog because
honestlyother than work and exam stress, nothing significant
has occurred or come to me that i felt the compulsive need
to share about.

Today is the first time an a long while that i have actually
felt blue.I attribute it to simple causes of feeling inadequate
and being lost.And during a nice hot shower it dawned on
me. Men(i am using a general term here as it obviously
involves women too) need torecognize the pillars of life.
Love (relationships) Work (well work) Community
(Social Networks) and Activities (hobbies).These are the
pillars that are the basis for our emotional stronghold.
The trick part is being able to see and balance the weights
on each of them. Weigh too heavily on one aspect and
instability occurs. We cannot look at life through the tunnel
vision of a singular goal, thatonly serves to weaken our
foundation and eventually bring about a demise.

Something happened today that made me look at myself and
question my self worth.I noticed today how heavily i lean on
relationships as a form of self validation. It is a terrible thing.
Luckily someone was thereso shed some light and at the same
time be my wet blanket.

We are so much more if we do not label and quantify ourselves
by role we seek to achieve. All that does is belittle the possibilities
of future growth.

With that said, i need my beauty sleep and i have an exam tomorrow..

You are..

Hello my mystery, our life awaits.
a treasure trove of laughs and smiles.
We are the extremes of the same plane,
the pride in a lions mane.
Too smart for mistakes
yet too silly to turn them down.
That spark in your eye and
wild playful smile say it all.
And we smile so wide ignoring the
envious that surround us.
The world can't stop this,
time won't tame us.

Tangled and twined we managed to find,
a love to die for, the kind dreams are made of.
We are the ones that got away.
We are 2 parts of the same,
never apart, never in heart.


Happy Valentine's day,
this is for you, whoever you are.