Pooped..

Man.. what a trying week..
with mid-terms and quizzes one after the other..
brings back memories of how tiring exam period used to be..
the cramming.. and practice.. anxiety with a dash of anxiousness..

i've got my english paper tomorrow.. and haven't started revision yet..
haha.. just like Jc days.. looks like some things don't change..
Can't wait for the weekend to get some well deserved rest..




Well enough about me.. on to today's post..


Today's post... mmMmm..
Lets do one on perserverance..
Ever hear the story of the little train that could..?
well.. he was huffing and puffing along a steep track..
and well.. it wasen't easy for the little guy..
now the passengers were all acting up..
some were encouraging.. and some were well.. annoyed..
but the little train pressed on a chug at a time..
ignoring the comments
and taking solice in transporting his passengers..
Up and down hills.. in and around mountians..
till he finally reached the station..

Everyone knows what it's like...
a long ardurous journey to reach that goal..
sometimes it sucks.. and other times.. it doesn't suck..= )
a chug at a time.. one step at a time..
and we'll get there.. i believe hard work pays off..
as hypocritical as that may sound coming from me..
maybe it's the army that ingrained it in my spirit..
to give it once more when you feel you've nothing left to give..
another step.. another try.. one last run..
cuz.. you have to..

As ..

Venting my loneliness on my dearest guitar..
playing chords that don't even match the song..
Trying to ignore the tugging in my chest..
and focusing on keeping it together..

Still can't grasp as to why..
And my only concern is this..

I truely pray you didn't leave because you felt you had nothing to offer..
because there is no bigger lie than that.. and if so..
let me reassure you.. you couldn't be more wrong..
= ) no need for selfless sacrifices..

i think and hope i was a good boyfriend..
i did my best.. if i hurt you.. it wasn't my intention..

i know ur hurting.. sacrifices you've made..
with nothing but good intentions..
my heart will always support and guide you..
to grow and learn.. for strength and support..

as for myself.. well i'm hurting too..
but i respect your decisions..

Its almost 6am in the Morning..
and as usual i've drank a little..
so if my typing isn't coherant forgive me..
i've been meaning to type this post for quite a long time now..
It's titled..

Women.. Once burned forever shy..

i've discovered a trend amongst my female friends
that affects them in their relationships today..
it seems that many of these girls..
were so badly hurt or betrayed in their first relationship..
in some way or another dealt injustice..
be it being cheated on.. breaking up.. or taken advantage of..
and because of that..
thay vowed never to fall in love so whole-heartedly again..
that it was better to be loved than to give it..
Even in their current relationships.. they feel safety in being loved..
and are scared of giving too much..

i feel that because of that hurt..
men are always going to be looked at as..
untrust worthy or scum..
but that is more a stereotype than anything else..
Guys don't say it..
but Being proud of your boyfriend.. and showing affection is
something we really appreciate..
maybe it's time to let go of that hurt..
and be open To give and recieve love..

Reflections in the Water..

To Live.. to Learn.. and to Love..
Life can be condensed as such..
Today i looked at myself..
I don't like what i see..

Scared of the future and the uncertianty it holds..
and my place in it..


Blood and Water


Nice guys finish last.. its times like this i couldn't agree more..
there is nothing to be gained from being the good guy..
fun will always go to those who couldn't give a flying Fu**..
those who can't be bothered about repurcussions on others..
i wonder if doing the right thing all the time is even
appreciated in this day and age..
being responsible.. putting others before self..
making sacrifices.. self worth..
At the end of the day.. Do they mean anything..?
Personally i get so irritated with people who rush into the
MRT the moment the doors open.. without letting people
inside out first.. they are totally oblivious to the painted
yellow dirctions on the floor..
Sometimes I feel like i give and the world just takes..
Selflessness is gone.. and this world sickens me..


Closing..

Forgive me.. i'm usually not so emo..
but well its just one of those days i feel i must vent..
and where better than here.. in my own little private canvas..
i'm just abit worn down by the world i guess..

A light of the world..

Noticed i've been posting quite often recently..
Its good i finally got my tongue back.. I'll have my SAY..
Didn't get ANY work done today even though i knew i should have..
but for the first time in ages i finally feel fully unwound..
Watched Tv for about an hour after reaching home at 6.30pm..
Checked my e-mails.. More tv and then a Chicken Rice Dinner..

And for some strange reason i felt compelled to rock out..
Dusted her off and did simple scaling.. re-introducing my fingers to the fretboard..
and messing with my effects pedal.. really got into the melodies and free-playing..
And i remembered! the albums i wanted finished downloading..!
So.. 'A Beautiful Lie' by 30 seconds to Mars
and 'Take to the skies' by Enter Shikari..
after a good listen i actually sat down and
like made up lyrics and chords to a song..
well half a song.. but it came so easily..

Music beats my heart.. and elates my soul..
A light of the world..