Had one of those 'its a Tiny world we live in' moments today.. Stopped by my mom and sisters office on the way home and I found out John Molina's niece goes to my sisters speech therapy center..! and met May (Johns sister) too.. talk about coincidence ya..?

well research papers handed in, projects done and presentations.. err.. presented.. with 2 weeks before exams its time to buckle down and bury myself in the books.. *sigh* i am dreading the exams.. i mean.. didn't we JUST have midterms..?! damn condensed US system is keeping me on a pretty tight leash..

Can't wait to get out of the country.. hopefully i'll leave for the USA after next sem to finish up my final year. its still a tentative but that will be one hell of an experience.. even if it is a university city..

Acid Bar is having its anniversary this saturday and tris will be back! How awesome is that.. me, tris and ken already have a table booked and all the bands will be down to play 70's, 80's and current music.. Sounds like a good time anda good chance for me to kick back before cramming my brains out.

I used to ponder about life alot, but recently the chances to, have come considerably less than they used to. Had a moment on the ride to school today, and it came to me.

"its all in the cards"
There are things in life that are beyond us.
call it fate, godly divination, you could worship the all mighty cookie
and it would all be the same. Basically life is, what life is.
Some things are meant to be and others not,
i.e. the cards of life are dealt to us, Whats in the cards and when
additional cards are given is beyond our control.

I have come to realise several things.
Firstly, that the cards are pre-determined and being anxious
or disappointed in the cards really doesn't accomplish anything.

which leads me to my second point.
given how moping or whining about the situation doesn't
get us anywhere, that just leaves us with playing the game.

No point stressing out about stuff sometimes..
we really gotta learn to let go and move on..

Hmm.. i feel better..

I find that in love, i always tend to give too much.
Its an all or nothing thing with me.
I put my entire heart and being into the vision..
the vision of living happily together, sharing special moments,
romance and the future of infinate possibilities.
I guess i'm a romantic that way..

As an outsider, i'm always able to give insight and advice.
But when i get involved in actual relationships,
i lose my bearing of logical sense, and become as lost
as everyother soul.

Its a sad and rather concerning discovery to be honest..
I think i still love falling into the passion of the moment..
an optimistic illusion of romance and adventure.
is a necesary change required..? to be more grounded..?
its hard to say really..

I love this song by saosin..
finding serenity in the progressive chords and yearning vocals.

"You're not alone, there is more to this i know.
you can make it out, you will live to tell."

Omg..
seriously the weeks are counting down faster than i can manage..
and the amount of daily content they are jamming into my head
paired with the amount of a) assignments b) projects and c) revision
i have to get done.. i am really kicking to stay above water here...

anyway.. here's a joke... it made me smile..
so i thought i'd share it with you guys...
okay so..

2 fish are in a tank....
one turns to the other and says:
"You man the guns, i'll drive."

haha.. damn... even when i'm typing it its funny..
i don't care if you didn't laugh, you have no soul..

well.. i can't wait for year end.. i really need that break..
and might go clubbing this sat since its halloween and all..
MAYBE...

I'm gonna make this clear...
i have never and will never like Zouk...
after Plush me and ken made our way down to Zouk
to join victor sally and Samuel..

Phuture was so packed.. my god.. there wasn't space to dance!
Seriously whats the point in cramming in and suffocating..
if you are lucky there will be 4 inches between youand the next guy..
and So many young guys and girls.. *shakes head*

And then after ken got wasted.. the rest wanted to go..... Mambo!
**Shudder**.. the night just gets worse and worse for me..
Here's the thing.. TONNES of pple love mambo...
and i respect their right to... by ALL means..
but for me.. memorizing the dance moves to a song..
and imitating the guy on stage trying to look like a 80's Diva...
isn't dancing.. Gross...
i'd rather have my limbs gnawed off by rats before i mambo...

Yes.. zouk badd.... Badddd.... lesson learnt..

2 Invisible

Intro: Dm7 Dm E A

Dm7 Dm
Wish i mattered to you... ( repeat )
E A# A
Don't you see that i want you to..
Dm7 Dm
i think i stay but i won't.. (repeat)
E A
chances are that i'll fade away..

G C
and i turn, turn to run,
E
but i can't get away from it all..
G A
Just like light, from the sun,
Dm7 Dm E A#
i'm invisible...
A
I'm invisible...

*intro*

. Dm7 Dm
Disobedient heart.. (repeat)
E A# A
Full of longing just tear apart..
Dm7 Dm
I'm done feeling this way..
E A
no more strength for a brand new day..

G C
Stand up tall, walk away..
E
Precious moments and memories dismay..
G A
And i'll walk out that door..
Dm7 Dm E A#
be invisible..
A
Invisible.


Another attempt to songwrite on my guitar...
2 verses, 2 choruses and a one bar intro..
it misses a another verse.. a bridge and an ending..

i think this one as a song has feeling
but both the lyrics and the melody can be fine tuned..
oh fyi they chords are power chords..

Well the song speaks its own message..
and everyone can relate i hope..
Tag the board if you have any feedback or ideas k..?