Revelation..

Maybe saying " I'm not afraid anymore.", and embracing
the future is what I need to deal with it and move on.. :)

I recently looked through some old posts on my other blog.
Its mostly angry rants and emo scribbles.. but one post in
particular caught my eye. It starts out by saying that

"Life is not a spectator sport, and we are in the game
whether we like it or not."

That struck a chord. It reminds me that I need to be willing
to put myself out there more and seize the day. So lets
give it our all, whatever it may be, for that must truly be the
best way to live life.

Inspiration comes fast, leaves its mark and dissipates quickly if not captured.. :)

How apt, that they call it falling in love. The sensation of being in the moment and having the world slowly just fall away. When you hold on tight and allow yourself to plunge, holding your breath and praying it lasts for an eternity. Eyes closed you know, it feels pure, whole, the way God intended. Those feelings and emotions are what we can now and forever hold as true to our hearts, because they are as earnest and truthful as you will ever come across.

B.C

Today i can't seem to get my words out right, to flow as they should, to carry the intentions they mean. It never fails to sidewind me and knock me back a few paces. Without going too deep into it all, let me just say, "Happy Birthday boy, a quarter century in and the time is now. So look forward to the future."

Today I step back and give thanks. Every bone and muscle, cell and fiber, a part of you. For all you have given to me and this family. I wonder if me, the son who fell furthest from the tree, who made you worry the most, and who seemed the most distant, is the one who holds on the dearest.


Did the fact that it fell so close to my birthday scar me..? Maybe, but it isn't anyone's fault. :)

It doesn't matter though. You will always, always, have that spot in my heart. Happy Anniversary Dad.

Andrew

I was thinking about it today. About how it sounded almost too good to be true. I must say, I have nothing but respect and admiration for him. Its rare that I meet people who make me start questioning myself so such a deep level. Things like, "Do I put my needs ahead of others too often?", "Am I doing all I can to care for the ones I love?", "Have my prior conceptions that there is no place in this world for Mr Nice been wrong all along?". He is altruistic, selfless, an all-round nice guy and his name is Menghui.. Who knows, he might just be the chinese jesus.. :)


Its always interesting when someone is able to send your head reeling off course to self discovery. Me thinks there is alot to take away and ponder. Time to sit down with a beer and make some tweeks.