Birthday...

Birthdays... *Smile*..
friends.. laughs.. food.. good fun..
let me start of by thanking the guys..
tris.. sam and ken... for throwing me a pretty fun bash..

its weird.. i'm not like.. realli happy and all that..
but its just that feeling that.. yah
i feel appreciated.. and they went through this for me..

got to catch up with my pals..
ken.L, guao, tris, ken & sam..
got to drink a lil... shoot hoops.. skate...
hang out with the girls at chancery..
and i even escaped for some alone time..
just laid on the ground looked at the sky..
needed 2 get away from it all...
absolutly fantastic.. had a nice chat too..

sat down.. was thinking about...
army stuff.. my friends.. and my relationships...
its weird.. i'm so.. well.. zoned out about it now..
i feel like i'm just hanging around..
like a picture on the wall.. there but unnoticed..
i know it sounds realli well.. metaphorical..
but thats the best i could come up with..
an i DO feel that way..
maybe i let myself think about it too much..
for now i'll be a picture.. a nice one.. *grin*

thinking about... bookin in tmr...
have a crazy week coming up...
ippt on monday.. 4Km route march on tues..
soc on wed and thurs...*sigh*
i sure hope i can take it...
can't help but give all i got..

The hour grows late..
and i'm getting Weary..
( love it when i talk like this haha)
i need to rest up..
Pleasent dreams all..

*i wish u'd understand, i'm not sure how i feel right now.. i hate hurting pple i know.. i.. i wish i was the one..."