it hurts.. so badly.. i couldn't even keep myself together on the train ride..
the lady next to me raised her eyebrows when i teared..
but it like my heart squeezes when i remember my world revolved around you..


i.. i feel so lost.. she was everything i wanted.. pushed me to be all i could be..
and now there's a giant hole where she used to be..

and all i want is to be with you.. i'd work out anything..
I'm scared.. this was the one... and i blew it..

time to cry myself to sleep..
i really don't wanna wake up..
and face another day of this..

fuck damnit.. i just wanna yank my heart out arteries and all..
toss it out and curse it for seeing..