Just came back from town.. freakin tired.. but well happy.. i watched a movie and had SUPER filling oreo cheasecake.. i mean i coulden't even finish it.. had to bribe trina to.. she was SOoOoOoo much help.. haha.. yah.. we just hung out and chatted .. school of rock is well.. funny.. sometimes.. thats the downside.. but the parts that Wern't funny were well inspiring nontheless... after trina left i met the guys at far east.. and sam wussied out of talking to one girl he knew.. haiz how disappointing.. he and ken are at skatepark now.. din realli feel like joining them.. so i'm at home working on lyrics.. i mean.. i can stand to get better.. much..
Damn~! i got my SAT scores back..! i got 1220.. i just need a freakin 30 more to like qualify for singapore uni.. this is so f'ed up...~! man this is wack...~ i'm so friggin pissed with myself man.. *sigh* okay... *deep breath* so i'm angry.. but i'll do better next time.. *deep breath*.. yah.. no point in being angry i guess...
Okay.. song lyrics.. i got like new part for different song... wrote it right after trina left... haha not that its about her.. anyway hear it out.. help and critisism is welcome.. note it is abit rocky.. so bear with me..

Song 1 intro

Open ur eyes,
u'll see what i see.
Everything dismal
in my reality.
Don't be afraid ,
there's nothing to fear.
deep in this darkness,
its silence u hear...
Tabs
6 4 2 1
8 6 4 3
8 6 4 3
comments..? yah anyway.. nites~

Ello ello~...its 3.10 am... yupz.. went to class todae..*sigh* it was so boring.. i never felt so sleepy in my life.. i prefer normal jc lectures to this.. and it lasted a WHOLE 6 hrs.. my god... yah anyway went to town and met brendon and tris with sam and my bro.. and we went to sponge.. and sam got a new deck.. and i got new shoes~! chad muskas babY~! haha when i got them on my feet i was super scared to skate in them... they were SO new.. my babys~.. haha. anyway ollied a lil and they felt So good..~

yah and talked to my mom abt the whole course thingie.. haiz she wants me to go furher and further.. to the extent of specialising.. and to be perfectly honest.. i'm at a loss.. i dunno if its what i wanna do.. even told her i almost wanted to drop out.. its that bad.. well sad stuff.. lets NOT look at it..

yay i'm going to the movies tmr...~! school of RoK~.. i wanted to watch it for so long... and i get to hang out with trina too.. sounds like a good day already.. = ). oh yah i mentioned i'd put up the new lyrics.. but i'm dead tired.. and guess will do it some other time..

" i lost my head.. filled with all the stupid things i said..."
coldplay.trouble

OoOooh... guess what.. i wanted to like work, but my mom is like forcing me to do these 3 certificate courses so i can get a damn diploma in educational counciling by march..! yah had my first sesson toade... from 1 to 7.. its freakin crazy man..! i'm bloody brain dead.. and guess what~! i got homework... sheesh.. if i ever see homework again it'll be too soon.. children's chromotharapy, dignostic art AND educational counciling...~ Haiz so cuz of that i won't be free on mondays... thursdays.. and fridays from 1 -7.. yupz.. O fuck.. what haf i got myself into..

so with this crazy timetable gettin a job is NOT gonna be easy... damn.. coulden't even skate todae... yah i'm super zonked out... gonna hit the shower and juz go to sleep... got educational counciling class tmr... *sigh again*

"Fly... along with me.. i can't quite make it alone.. try to make this life my own.."
Foo Fighters.Learn to fly

Added: i know i'm supposed 2 be sleeping but i dunno i just can't... so i've been playing coldplay songs on the guit for the last 2 hrs... how am i gonna survive 6 hrs of class without sleep tmr.. gosh..~ oh oh oh~! and i came up with 2 verses for a song.. and the tune.. but strangly it doesn't match the first song at all.. hmmx.. yupz will post up the lyrics soon.. till then.. i need to hit the hay.. or at LEAST try... *sigh*

OoOooh... guess what.. i wanted to like work, but my mom is like forcing me to do these 3 certificate courses so i can get a damn diploma in educational counciling by march..! yah had my first sesson toade... from 1 to 7.. freakin crazy man.. i'm bloody brain dead.. and guess what~! i got homework... sheesh.. if i ever see homework again it'll be too soon.. chromotharapy, dignostic art AND educational counciling...so cuz of that i won't be free on mondays... thursdays.. and fridays from 1 -7.. yupz..

so with this crazy timetable gettin a job is NOT gonna be easy... damn.. coulden't even skate todae... yah i'm super zonked out... gonna hit the shower and juz go to sleep... got class tmr... *sigh again*

Todae was .. well pretty much like any other day... but after going the the tcc course preview to help out yesterdae, i dunno... it felt kinda good.. i heard some things i needed to be reminded about.. hanging around their positive energy kinda picked mine up too..

man~, there was one lady there that was bonkers... she was all like: " i have NO faith in humans~! i've seen So many people die.world leaders are bringing people in the wrong direction. this world cannot be saved.. why bother~!"haha and all the helpers were like.... ooooOooo kay... i was like: "Get this women some prozac~! or some weed..~! Stat~! " haha~..

so yah actualli had a nice enlightening time.. todae as usual went down late.. and skated. sam mike and tris were there... and we goofed arnd... haha played on those damn skate scooters... fucking funny shit man..! ollie.. tail whip.. k-stall.. Ooo OOoo OO and i landed 2 moving kickflips 2dae....! it was kinda sketchy but yah..~ i was pretty stoked~... Came home soon after.. dinner and again.. sisters guitar lesson.. i should get paid man...haha. that seems like all there is tonight..

"Everybody wants your soul..!"
Finger eleven. slow chemical

Its 2.47am.. and i played guitar for the last 2..? 2 and a half hrs? learning how to play songs off the evanscence cd.. that is good stuff man.. so.. yah time flys when ur hafin fun. Today my skating was bad.. really bad.. i wasn't skating with intenion.. and i din push myself at all.. that was pretty disappointing.. must make it a resolution a focus and be present.. so i can tune in on my mistakes.. yupz.. besides that it was ur everyday boring regime... i'm gonna read and listen to the red hot chilli peppers cd (that my bro bought me..!) and doze off.. = ) sweet dreamx

ALL tt happened 2dae: woke up late, watch tv, eat, read, met tris and sam and taught sis how 2 play guitar..FULL STOP.. well till now that is.. BORING~!

i did work on the damn song tho. its supposed to be abit rocky ... and worked out a verse... gonna put it up.. any suggestions for a chorus.. plz msg me... haiz.. haven't had ANY inspiration lately. all i got is this

turned my head away from thee,
never ever again to see.
its my hunger you feed,
and that is all in which i need...

the single light of hope was mine,
which ur fingers did entwine.
i know now i can't be free,
this spell that you've cast on me.

the guitar tabs are like..
5 1 0
7 3 2
7 3 2
then d-3-2-0-2-3 E-3
if anything i think its utter crap.. well anyway yah u can see i'm bad at this.. help~

Its sunday night... last day of the apparent holidays.. well for my schooling and poly frens that is.. Weirdly.. i din feel like skating much today.. so just hung out with them and talked... and played lan then dinner.. the guys were pretty pissed that sch starts tmr but.. i guess half psyched in a way..

i don't know but today i felt... empty.. as in.. not happy OR sad.. but u know.. like a hollow feeling...
guess its the whole not having school thing... i mean its totally weird.. i won't get to do sch stuff..
1) wearing AND tucking out my school uniform..
2) Hang out with my friends.. which i miss quite alot.. trash talking.. firdaus cracking me up with his damn jokes..aaron and his weird comments, menghui singing zhou jie lun ALL dae... and the girls.. haha damn ena and her balloon.. = P~!
3)the thrill of ponning lessons to sneak to the canteen..
4)MAss Pe~ omg its so damn hard but rewarding..
5)going home after school knowing that my brain can't take a second more...
6)Going to Coronation plaza with the guys to eat and tok kok...!
But thats all gone... its a new year.. challenges to face.. mountians to climb.. and all i can say is...
BRING IT ON BITCH... haha. man i need a job.. haha gonna hit the showers... nites

Whoa... brendon and tris slept over... haha had some heavy liquor and wrote a song?? haha nah juz the guitar part... so yah... and read skate mags.. haha it was good shit man.. yah anyway woke up at abt 10 and rushed to skatepark to meet sam... haha it was like super hot and we juz sat arnd.. then headed ova to HMV.. yah head some realli gd rock singles... !then we headed home to skate summore..(repetitive isn't it..? haha) had a pretty bad fall but nvm, TheN WAN came over..~! OMg he is like a skate god man... kickflip 5050, backside shuv 50.50, backside 180 to swtich manual to switch frontside 180 out.... Oh fuck man.. its like poetry in motion.

Then i met up with the class... or at least half of them.. and we caught up.. man i miss them.. each of them hold some fragment of my jc memories within.. and i realli missed that.. haha.. altho most of it was trash talk.. just hanging out with them brought back that familiar feeling i wanted..

anyway i'm going to work on that song...

'This is how it feels to not believe'
Yellowcard.way away