Saturday, March 06, 2004

I got... c for geography, d for bio, d for econs and a B3 for gp..
*sigh*.. i mean when i got my results i was.. like.. okay..
i'm a LIL disappointed.. BUT
at least i didn't fail .. and i was.. okay with it.. for awhile..
but as the dae dragged on..
and i heard more and more pple do so much better..
i kept thinking.. is "okay" good enough..?
and i think.. PERSONALLY it isn't.. but its already over..
i sure would have liked to score better.. i mean who woulden't..
so i guess i'm gonna try not dwell on it..

btw been having a killer sore throat the last 3 days..
and its gotten worse and worse..
think its at its absolute most sore tonight..
actualli tris and i just came back from embargo..
had a pretty good time.. watched my drinking...(not too much~!)
caught up with the marist guys.. damn fun..*grin*
and at the same time.. we hung out with..
nicole( i did spell it right! ah Ha) trina and lynn..
i certianly was an entertaining night man.. i mean.. dude..
the barf was so sick.. but entertaining.. haha..
and i shouted.. spoke to loudly.. all that..
now i can't say a sentence without "twanging" a word..
its bad.. voice is pretty fucked..
strangly i kinda like it.. haha.. but not gonna keep it..
it'll kill my throat..
andway.. did sum werid quiz thingie..
supposed to show what winged being i am..

Dark Angelic

I'll bet you expected this answer. You already knew you were a DARK ANGELIC, didn't you? You are similar to a demon but slightly different in that you don't revel in revel in pleasure. Your wings resemble an angel's but if that's so then you are a Fallen Angel - your love of sin caused you to be cast from the Heavens. They are black as raven wings and are nearly as dark as your desires. You are faithless and love it - you believe there is no Judgement Day to fear and so you can do what you want! You have a refined concept of what is sexy and a slightly chaotic sense of 'fun.' In fact, you love chaos and view much of what you do as a game. You are typically attracted to those that will challenge your mind, power, and wit...and are 'dangerous' people like you. It's not unlikely that you are bisexual or at least open to the concept, because you seek excitement and passion everywhere and in everyone. Chances are you have a special talent for magick - you're a powerful being and you know what you want. Like a Serpent of Eden you like to try your powers of seduction and manipulation, though your intent is rarely to cause harm. You have a deep, dark sense of art and/or poetry, because your mind is a deep, dark place. While typically smirking, amused, and sarcastic, you are capable of severe revenge and a passion and intensity unrivaled by any other. In your eyes life is for enjoyment and pleasure - nothing else. If you're not having fun in your own twisted way, you're not happy. You are easily bored with the vast majority of people. You are most likely drawn towards the Gothic subculture and probably adore Goth music, art, and style. Many people look down on your seemingly careless lifestyle and may even consider you 'slutty'. Not true. You just know you're sexy and you're damn proud of it. Dark Angels have an outlook most like Satanists - loving sin and looking to none but themselves for power. Congratulations! You're my kindred spirit. As far as I'm concerned - you know what life is REALLY about. Have fun...Muahaha.

most stuff is right.. all except the gay shit man.. no fucking way..

Thursday, March 04, 2004

Lyrics.. okay.. errmm..
the thing is.. the song ain't complete yet..
and i'm trying to work out a chorus and bridge..
But here they are anyway..
i think i'll call it falling.. yah i like that..
onli 4 verses.. i need a chorus

Lying in my bed at night,
outside my room a flickering light.
the shadows dance upon my bedroom wall.

And suddenly it comes 2 me,
i'm not the man i want to be.
and pieces of my world begin 2 fall..(fall~)

The sun has set its time to go,
and in the end we'll never know.
you went your way and didn't say good bye

Ten years from now along the street,
we meet and you look just as sweet,
just strangers walking past we don't say hi..
and i need an outtro..
so yah.. i like it..
all the stress is buliding up to tmr.. fucking hell..!
my fucking cough and sore throat are killing me..
Damn bloody results coming out tmr..*ahem* i mean todae..
and so many pple waiting to hear how i scored..
my mom.. my uncles.. my grandma.. (would you believe it?)
i can't bloody think straight with my fucking headache..
AND the song choruses aren't working out..
man i am So ticked now.. i meant to swear off alcohol for awhile..
but man this night is driving me nuts..!
argh~..! Fucking shit man... thank god i dun haf 2 censor words here..
i'm going down to have a beer.. and.. stuff...
then gonna knock off.. stupid a's..

Wednesday, March 03, 2004

Note: this passage contains explict language. read on if you are above 18, or are accompanied by a parent. haha.. seriously.. dun be offended. just speaking my mind.. and now its abit.. full of eh.. colour words.. i'm not like shouting it.. its just the way it is..


Clear and simple.. thats how i freakin feel..
no bullshit.. no beating around the fucking bush..
i'm scared man.. and hell i'm not gonna deny it..!
I mean.. 5 pple todae told me not to worry..
They ALL they gave me the same..
"Oh.. its All over.. worrying won't change anything.. i'm sure score well wan"
speech.. and honestly i'm fuckin sick of that shit..
i don't think i'm gonna score well.. and they thinking i will
makes me feel even more pressure to do well..
hell i'll fucking feel scared and worried if i fucking want to..
i don't see them collecting A 'level results..
*sigh* i dun mean to be an asshole and bite their shit man..
i KNOW they are TRYING..
(note.. the TRYING..)
to make me feel better.. and they just care about me..
but.. Arghh.. its like they don't get it~..
It means sumthing for me to do weLL~..
I WANT it... *sigh* not that its gonna happen lar..
but i sure fucking hope a freakin miracle happens..
why do i get the feeling that...
i won't be getting any sleep tonight and tmr night..
Fuck man.. i need 2 drink...
i'm out..

its 3.40am.. and i'm up plunking on my guit..
actualli ended up writing a song after going out..
and i think the lyrics and tune are realli good..
shall not put it up.. it needs some work..
eh.. if you guys wanna see the lyrics..
tag the board.. and i guess i could put it up..
will try 2 go sleep now..

Tuesday, March 02, 2004


Man.. A's are comin out~ !
seconds are ticking away till friday..
each time the beat of my heart growing faster and faster..
i'm fuckin trippin man.. its crazy.. i mean..
Whoa.. that was fast..
2 months sure sped by..
i ain't feel too good about it anyway..
hope i don't fuck up..
i gotta get out of the house man..
the tension is pretty tight..
its fuckin killin me..
OUtta Here~

Glad i got out of the house.. totally took my mind off it..
went 2 meet tris and sam to play lan.. and skate..
then we all went hm for dinner.. met later to go to the gym..
and go SWIMMING~! haha.. then we went to newton circus..
had a super Good supper~.. *drooL* i still want more..
followed by a nice walk home.
Oh~! yah 4got to mention that i bought a new cd Yesterdae~!
i got the new "thrice" album.. and its GooD~.. i'm a happi boy..
din get to listen 2 it last night.. was pretty tired..
so when i got back i locked myself in the room..
and kicked back to it..
so naturally, i'll end off with some lyrics from their new album~
Song's called.. Enjoi
"The Artist In The Ambulance"

"late night, brakes lock, hear the tires squeal
red light, can't stop so i spin the wheel
my world goes black before i feel an angel steal me from the
greedy jaws of death and chance, and pull me in with steady hands
they've given me a second chance, the artist in the ambulance"
NOt much words 2dae.. woke up felt sick..
played guitar.. went down 2 skate..
things picked up.. had a good laff..
went 2 town.. just chilled..
Its been a pretty good dae.. = P
here's a song.. enjoy..
its by incubus

"Sick Sad Little World"

"No, You're not the first to fall apart
But always the first one to complain
You better get careful or you'll compromise everything You are

The world is a joke when out of love
Please come back to us
You're all of the above
I'm making a choice to be out of touch
Leave me be he said

Leave me here in my stark craving sick sad little world
Leave me here in my stark craving sick sad little world

I've never had unpaid confidantes
It's more than I would care to explain
But I have an open door policy when it comes to blame

The world is a joke when out of love
Please come back to us
You're all of the above
I'm making a choice to be out of touch
Leave me be he said

Leave me here in my stark craving sick sad little world
Leave me here in my stark craving sick sad little world"

Monday, March 01, 2004


As you can guess,
Its.. about 4.25am.
and since i coulden't sleep
i thought i'd just jot down some thoughts..
Had some .. good skating todae..
did 50.50 down my first hubba.. wicked man..
felt damn fucking sweet~~...
hung out with my bro, brendon , tris and sam..
when it rained.. we went to jam @ sam's place..
we goofed arnd more than anything..
we played...
"she's so high", "Hold on","feeling this" & "megalomaniac"
then went 2 far east to have BK for dinner..
and we played some pool..
came back.. hung out at 7-11.. haha..
and got back pretty late..
*sigh*.. actualli besides all that..
i got a lil tense and i snapped at my mom..
but apologised and its all good now..
guess cuz i'm tired and.. emotionally confused..?
yah.. i'm kinda at a crossroad..
so its pretty draining..
and thoughts keep buzzing in my head..
yah thats it.. but i realli dun wanna deal with relationship stuff..
so a big fat mental block shoud do it.. = )
till next time...

"'cause i am due for a miracle
i'm waiting for a sign
i'll stare straight into the sun
and i won't close my eyes
'til i understand or go blind"
Thrice.Stare at the sun