Tuesday, January 18, 2011

I haven't posted in awhile. I just felt I was so past the stage of emotional rants and poems and peeves, but in giving up this blog, I also gave up somewhere to express love and gratitude. A lot has happened since. Graduation, a new and fantastic girlfriend, job disappointment and my general ups and downs. Typing this feels odd yet familiar, like how i would imagine using a typewriter might feel like. You get the words out there, but in a less than ideal almost clunky fashion.

Today I feel.. the NEED to say, and announce to whoever, about how she has just shocked me. I even had an 'inception' moment when she spoke the words that made me reflect what I was doing and with her precision tact, slapped me into looking into my mental blindspot. :) I don't get that, "oh what a fool i have been" moments much, but if i was looking into a mirror, i'd be looking at a clown. (clowns are evil btw).

Let us recap.
I really need to get off my ass with regards to being a better well-rounded person. That means reading more widely, applying more extensively, learning about industries.

I need to affirm and be affirmative with what i want and the things i believe in. Pacifying is NOT a way out. On that note, tact and delivering the proper information to the right people to create the "Ideal" situation should always be at the back of my mind. Leave the right tracks, and the train will follow, so to speak.

I need to believe that honest communication will prevail and take us where we need to go. Being mindful of course that women speak with a host of diabolical traps and snares, beneath that are loving caring intentions.

She is love, a great one. One I hope to never lose.
with that I give you, my first post in 7 months. :)