Fort Minor

"Where'd You Go?"

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,

Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,

"I don't understand why you have to always be gone,

I get along but the trips always feel so long,

And, I find myself tryna stay by the phone,

'Cause your voice always helps me when I feel so alone,

But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,

But when I pick up I don't have much to say,

So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,

That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',

Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,

Me and the rest of the family here singing

"Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone,Please come back home.

OH Happy Days..

Its about 0130 Hrs in the morning..
and i just got home stinky and soggy..
No.. i didn't go clubbing Or swimming..
i just got back from 7 SIB range..
which fyi, i am NOt a part of..
Mmmm.. why then was i there..?
arrowed to be the neutral umpire.. THATs why..
Ugh.. so god damn tired..
on top of that.. it didn't help that i needed to take a cab back..
my poor wallet god bless her soul..
and my cab driver who strangly decided to only converse in fujian..
all i could do was nod my head like i was having a seizure..
you think thats bad..?
he was going 115km\hron the expressway..
and i SWEAR i caught him nod off once or twice..
Very VERY comforting..
I am tired.. merry X'mas everyone..
to all my friends, thank you for putting
up with me and my nonsense.. for yet another year..
god bless you guys..

OwiE~... Shourt 1 drum..

let me tell you a story...
My Ear Hurts~!
actually its been hurting all yesterday..
and guess what..! its my ear drum bulging..
cuz of built up pressure or smth..
visited my family doctor..
he gave me medicine and i booked in to camp..

did sum stuff and dozed offff...
and at like 3 in the morning i felt my ear was wet..
Yuppp... my eardrum burst..
so i went to see my unit mo and he was kinda freaked at
how much blood was in my ear...
so he sent me to see a specialist at CGH..
and they gave me a good hard painful ear cleaning..
and stuffed a cotton thingie in..
that hurt too by the way...

and now i'm home for 3 daes...
mmMmmm..
well hopefully it'll recover in a week..

Out of pandora's box
escapes sorrow and dispair..


before hope...
where's the hope......


sigh..
i turn my head for a moment..
and it all stacks up..
far be it from me to air dirty laundry..
but i've either had it.. or i'm just tired..

Reality checks are hard aren't they..?
for a brief moment glimpsing a look at urself..
just the way it is.. unshaven.. unclean...
no where to hide left or right..


mmmMmm... looks like i've done it again..
i try to be the teddy bear in all of this but..
like everyone i lose it sometimes..
not that its a bad thing.. i say what i have to say..
and if it stings.. it's probably the truth..
save the look at yourself before looking at others
for another time.. cuz i'm just airing thoughts..
i'm such a prick...

1)
I will not stand by and watch this anymore..
i nag if i care which u apparently don't
and if u don't care about yourself our the implications on others..
don't expect me to clean up afterwards..
cuz i WILL bail.. and i won't be left picking the pieces..
slice ur wrists on ur own time.. not mine..

2)
u... grow up... harsh..? but true..
ur not a small boy anymore.. so stop acting like one..
ugh.. sometimes i feel like my heads gonna friggin pop~!
life's not a gonna be an easy ride all ur damn life..
and honestly i'm getting weary of the antics..

3)
Don't know why it yanks at my nerves..
how can you be so young..? Ugh..
so overly obsessed with the wrong things..
i want to i want to.. everyone else iS!~~!
i Must have it.. so naive...
there's a reson for rules..
the time WILL come.. why bother...

4)
i need to get myself moving..
using army as an excuse to take a thinking vacation..
Things i HAVE to get done and haven't touched..
things i should have more initiative on and not doing..
just fucking shit tired...

Never Again..

Sometimes i expect a reply.. A reply from the dead..
i've waited too long..
waiting.. still waiting.. maybe.. maybe someday soon..
Its light Dim.. and extinguised in a gust..
A squirming flame now no more..

and once again.. it sears at my flesh..
and scratches at my sinew.. but its okay..

Unto me any bodily harm there of
and the river of blood overflow..
let the devil himself within awaken..
awaken...

And Once again.. Never again.. i let you die..
Fallen to the ground and body runs cold..
A stigma engraved in my consiousness..
Why did you leave me..
A stranger so close.. and a stranger in me..