Sink away from the thumping beats
into the soothing sounds of harmonic
guitar melodies, dashed with fantasy
and just the slightest bit of melancholy.

Take off the big personality and hang it
on the clothes rack, to just be stripped
and silent. Troubles and worries out
of the pocket and onto the dresser counter,
till nothing more than a blank slate remains.

As the music enshrouds, and the chords take
you on a roller coaster ride in the universe of
your mind, remember what it feels like to
be carried away for the first time,

to love for the first time.









I need to remind myself that i'm done.
really, i know what this road leads to,
i've been down similar tracks. And all
the signs seem the same. I know better
but i know me and i'll still go against
better judgment and give it a shot.
One last shot and i'll walk away.

Time for a post..? *scratches head* yah sure why not..
Had a pretty relaxed day at work, although it is apparent
that staff and management are at loggerheads. Which
leaves me stuck in the middle trying to do the right thing
and not step on any toes.

On a separate note, i'm feeling increasingly torn as to how
i should deal with the OTHER state of affairs. It seems to
me that I should just go with the flow, but doing so leaves
matters out of my hands. Anyway there are no right and
wrong ways with these things. All i do require is straight-forward
honesty and communication.

Anyway i shall sleep on it and do my assignments in the morning
before heading to work.. fais de beaux rêves everyone

Let me be the one you look for to rest your weary head,
when things seem way to heavy and you want to go to bed.
The hours pass and it starts to get bright,
You wake up in the morning and I'm right there by your side.
And when you cry and all the pressure gets to you.
I'll hug you tight and say "Babe, there's nothing you can't do".

"I'm just a fucked up girl trying to find her own peace of mind"
From Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.

Aren't we all clementine? Aren't we all.

"How happy is the blameless vestal's lot.
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each prayer accepted, and each wish resigned."

Work, Study, Rinse, Repeat....

Been busy the last couple of days checking stuff off my
insurmountable "Things to do List". Which oddly enough
seems to keep growing instead of shortening.
*Scratches Head* Go figure..

5.02Am in the morning and I've decided take a break from
the arduous mugging and video lecture marathon, to strum
out some songs on the guitar and make a quick post.

So I hope you'll put up with my nonsensical and often
melancholic banter. I've noticed the relationships I have a tendency to
fall for or get involved with are always somewhat complicated.
Now before I start getting hate mail and death threats from
anyone, Hear me Out... :)

The onus is on me here and I'm not saying that the individual is
difficult. The context is purely the interaction and basis of the 2
individuals, more so than the one. At point of time you are
probably banging your head and about to throw a fit.
In Simple English..? If I make smarter choices i can avoid the
complications and getting burned...

Now back to the videos..
"where did i leave my popcorn...?"

As far as relationships go...

I can safely say that I take a very diplomatic
approach to most things in life, be it work,
school, family or any other conundrum. And
love certainly is no exception.

Let me be very clear, in no way do I see myself
as any sort of authority on the subject, however
I do understand that each relationship is different
and in turn has its different set of needs. Find one
where both parties needs are satisfied and Bingo.

Before you deem me wishy washy, sitting on the
fence or overtly simplistic, let me elaborate. The
premise of relationships should be on a clearly drawn
yes or no basis, which means, no maybes. The answers
may change with time, but still always be black and
white. Complication is the enemy. A big bad enemy
which more often than not leads to late nights
of sobbing and wallowing in too many unanswered
questions.

I'm no Nazi, I know I make relationships sound about
as exhilarating as reading from the telephone book, but
trust me, they are all about having fun, and having that
great connection. With all that said, I can whole heartedly
say that, As far as relationships go, I know nuts...





It's 7am, and if you don't mind, my bed beckons..
I bid you Adieu.