Watching "No Reservations" on tv is one of my guilty pleasures..
Even when repeated episodes come on, I sit intently soaking up
every quick quip and insightful comment Anthony Bourdain conjures.
And through the episode, I search for insight to apply to my own life
and my view of the world. Like how passion for life and living is a
function of being curious to know more of the world. And how, through
travel and opening our horizons we truly find out not how big the world
is, but how small we are in it.

He really is one of my heroes.
And i think one of the reasons that IS, is because I see parts of myself in
him. Cynical and bitter, but with the taste for adventure and ability to appreciate
both the fine and simple things in life with an undaunted passion.

Moving on..

My constant hectic lifestlye has caused this post to be long overdue. And
its just one of those things that have been buzzing at the back of my head
for the last 2 months or so. I am beginning to question my take on commitment.
I think my recent dating and relationship history presents a pattern of
me distancing myself whenever things get too serious. Truth of the matter is
that I cannot put myself back in the place of a serious relationship and haven't
been able to for the longest time.

I don't know if that should be a cause for any concern, but on the same note it
is a little unsettling. With that said, I look forward to relishing this coming break,
especially after dragging my brain through last semesters modules.



The night will belong to us, and only us,
if it is meant to be.

Funny how the most profound of messages
reaches us in the most unusual of ways.

Some of us are born eyes shunned down.
Others sat on ledges, gazing into the vista.
And while you were busy, eyes focused on the ground.
Our eyes were looking straight to the sky,
for we knew we could fly.





Sometimes it really isn't about dreaming..
its about knowing.

Its been HOW long since my last lovely post..?
i'm guessing a month or so.. Cat got my tongue?
Or has the unimaginable finally happened and
i have said all i have to say.

Lucky for you its Neither.

Just been working too hard and studying too much.
Projecting\preparing\quizzing\mugging..
I really need to get out of Singapore...
travel, work and study.. see the world outside of
this microcosm of an island.

Sink away from the thumping beats
into the soothing sounds of harmonic
guitar melodies, dashed with fantasy
and just the slightest bit of melancholy.

Take off the big personality and hang it
on the clothes rack, to just be stripped
and silent. Troubles and worries out
of the pocket and onto the dresser counter,
till nothing more than a blank slate remains.

As the music enshrouds, and the chords take
you on a roller coaster ride in the universe of
your mind, remember what it feels like to
be carried away for the first time,

to love for the first time.









I need to remind myself that i'm done.
really, i know what this road leads to,
i've been down similar tracks. And all
the signs seem the same. I know better
but i know me and i'll still go against
better judgment and give it a shot.
One last shot and i'll walk away.

Time for a post..? *scratches head* yah sure why not..
Had a pretty relaxed day at work, although it is apparent
that staff and management are at loggerheads. Which
leaves me stuck in the middle trying to do the right thing
and not step on any toes.

On a separate note, i'm feeling increasingly torn as to how
i should deal with the OTHER state of affairs. It seems to
me that I should just go with the flow, but doing so leaves
matters out of my hands. Anyway there are no right and
wrong ways with these things. All i do require is straight-forward
honesty and communication.

Anyway i shall sleep on it and do my assignments in the morning
before heading to work.. fais de beaux rêves everyone