OwiE~... Shourt 1 drum..

let me tell you a story...
My Ear Hurts~!
actually its been hurting all yesterday..
and guess what..! its my ear drum bulging..
cuz of built up pressure or smth..
visited my family doctor..
he gave me medicine and i booked in to camp..

did sum stuff and dozed offff...
and at like 3 in the morning i felt my ear was wet..
Yuppp... my eardrum burst..
so i went to see my unit mo and he was kinda freaked at
how much blood was in my ear...
so he sent me to see a specialist at CGH..
and they gave me a good hard painful ear cleaning..
and stuffed a cotton thingie in..
that hurt too by the way...

and now i'm home for 3 daes...
mmMmmm..
well hopefully it'll recover in a week..

Out of pandora's box
escapes sorrow and dispair..


before hope...
where's the hope......


sigh..
i turn my head for a moment..
and it all stacks up..
far be it from me to air dirty laundry..
but i've either had it.. or i'm just tired..

Reality checks are hard aren't they..?
for a brief moment glimpsing a look at urself..
just the way it is.. unshaven.. unclean...
no where to hide left or right..


mmmMmm... looks like i've done it again..
i try to be the teddy bear in all of this but..
like everyone i lose it sometimes..
not that its a bad thing.. i say what i have to say..
and if it stings.. it's probably the truth..
save the look at yourself before looking at others
for another time.. cuz i'm just airing thoughts..
i'm such a prick...

1)
I will not stand by and watch this anymore..
i nag if i care which u apparently don't
and if u don't care about yourself our the implications on others..
don't expect me to clean up afterwards..
cuz i WILL bail.. and i won't be left picking the pieces..
slice ur wrists on ur own time.. not mine..

2)
u... grow up... harsh..? but true..
ur not a small boy anymore.. so stop acting like one..
ugh.. sometimes i feel like my heads gonna friggin pop~!
life's not a gonna be an easy ride all ur damn life..
and honestly i'm getting weary of the antics..

3)
Don't know why it yanks at my nerves..
how can you be so young..? Ugh..
so overly obsessed with the wrong things..
i want to i want to.. everyone else iS!~~!
i Must have it.. so naive...
there's a reson for rules..
the time WILL come.. why bother...

4)
i need to get myself moving..
using army as an excuse to take a thinking vacation..
Things i HAVE to get done and haven't touched..
things i should have more initiative on and not doing..
just fucking shit tired...

Never Again..

Sometimes i expect a reply.. A reply from the dead..
i've waited too long..
waiting.. still waiting.. maybe.. maybe someday soon..
Its light Dim.. and extinguised in a gust..
A squirming flame now no more..

and once again.. it sears at my flesh..
and scratches at my sinew.. but its okay..

Unto me any bodily harm there of
and the river of blood overflow..
let the devil himself within awaken..
awaken...

And Once again.. Never again.. i let you die..
Fallen to the ground and body runs cold..
A stigma engraved in my consiousness..
Why did you leave me..
A stranger so close.. and a stranger in me..

Eye of the tiger baby~!

Mmmm... Rarrrh..~! i'm feelin good.. strangely..
feel like kicking ASS.. hahaha.. i'm pumped~!
Mothers hide ur daughters..~!

i guess its cuz pple i know are feeling down this week..
Exams.. army exercises.. breakups..
whatever.. gonna keep my chin up..
u know that saying... a wise man told me once...

he says to me;
" chosen one.. *chough cough*..
when the going get tough..










Kick ASS~!
*cough Cough*"

ps.. eat carls JR...



AND So you see..
maybe my alcohol poisoning has CLEARED my vision..
ah yes.. that and a dash of kung pow..


Ooh.. i saw COLIN at orchard~!
zack zack~! climb climb climb~!
dig deep for that inner monkey..
feel the flow..~~

Black Sheep...

Chosen to be part of this Core..
i can't help but always wonder if..
it was some kind of mistake..
for me to represent men of such value..

Out of place.. the life is not for me..
an officer is far from what i seem myself to be..
They carry themselves with such an air of absolutness..
confused, i fear i let down the core..
such a proud few..

now i'm SURE it was a mistake..
time will groom a leader..
surely not.. i'm of neither.. finding it so hard..
struggling to find my niche..