Morning~..


Morning..Ugh.. its 230Am.. and i ought to be sleeping..
decided to go to camp early tomorrow.. but ken's playing NFS most wanted..
and i couldn't help but cheer\jeer him on.. = )
Flu has been bugging me down recently..
ANYWAY.. thought i might make a meaningful post..
Not that i'd expect it to touch ur lives or anything..
haha.. the pic is there.. cuz.. um.. well i haf time..
it looks ORange.. was at the beach.. don't ask.. = )
and that lil guy is jack.. you might know him..

I think i've just come out to say that..
i understand life a lil more.. shouldn't we all..? after all..
time and age gives you experience and whatnot doesn't it...?

pain.. haha... you live for..?
we live.. don't we..? all for different reasons no doubt..
maybe ur proving something to your dad.. or living to be heard..
to impress others.. or to NOT prove Anything..

here's the thing.. i figure.. i live for the pain..
there aren't alot of us.. but i'm one of em..
live to feel.. pain and pleasure.. now forever..
in the now not the future..

suicide notes indeed..
Butterfly kisses...
doesn't it GRAB you...?

It just captured me.. the title i mean..
a painful love... Always testing the limits of a pulsating heart
Its good really.. Really good..

anyway time for bed..
wake up tomorrow.. or maybe not..?
hahaha..

sweet sour dreams...

More to life..?

I nice cool beer to tender my palette..its 5 in the morning..
i look out into the beautiful skyline of the city..
Its quiet.. the sky's still dark.. its that wonderful time..
rold dahl's magical "witching hour" i presume..

Now as i gaze longingly skywards.. i can't help but hunger..
crave this life.. everyone is living it.. where's my share..?
am i being paranoid..? could it be a myth..?
is what i have never good enough..?
there HAS to be more.. more to this life than what i grasp..
so tightly within my hands.. because it is fragile..
threatens to fleet.. this balance..








Where's my life...?




A lonely life, where no one understands you
But don't give up, because the music do
Music do, Music do , Music do..
Music do, Music do , Music do..

Because the music do
And then it's reachingIn
side you forever preaching
Fuck you too
Your scream's a whisper
Hang on you
Twisted Transistor

Hey you, hey you, finally you get it
The world ain't fair, eat you if you let it
And as your tears fall on
Your breast, your dress
Vibrations coming through
You're in a mess

She was Soooo hot~!

she was.. absolutly Stunning..
i couldn't help but be mesmerised..
those eyes.. that figure~.. *sizzle*

Haha.. just watched MI3 with tris and nicole..!
AND MAGGIE Q is so HOT~~..
In her red bareback dress..
driving her orange murceliago..

Ah well.. *sigh* i can dream..
x P

Hey EveryonE...

been running around the last couple of days.. Ord is upon us my cohaught...
was doing the laundry when i looked at my smart 4.. can't deny the 2 bars..
i had to smile.. i'm finally a lieutinent.. but what does it mean now..?
folding my smart 4 and chucking it to the washer..
Time for a change of skin.. leaving that old chunk behind..
the responsibility.. the outfield.. the challenges...

its like.. a lifetime ago.. at least it feels as such.. everything we were put through..
what a journey... all the physical and mental pressure.. to get where we are..
fighting missions in jungles... mountian tops.. ridgelines.. everything..
so much to learn.. experience.. let me say this... it was great...
always near and dear to my heart...
one common experience that affects everyone differently.. changes you and me..

anyway...

Check out the new hoobastank album.. (everyman for himself)
its different.. a lil more poppy.. but good listening..
and the new red hot chilli peppers album is out too..(staduim arcadium)
the peppers are much more diverse in this album..
but loyal fan's won't be disappointed..
maybe some of you have heard of tom delounge's new band Angels and airwaves..
since splitting from blink182 a year and a half ago its been a project in the making..
(we don't need to whisper) is *quote* the soundtrack to an adventure of life and war..
its different from anything you've heard.. true..
but its epic style won't appeal to pop listeners..
oh oh~.. and my personal fav.. checkout hawthorne heights..
if you like what i do this will knock your socks off..

*huggX* pple... ciao


You're waiting for someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say

He's everything you want

Look 4 Lost ?


ASk my Mates N they'll tell you..
i've given my fair share of Advices..
given a shoulder.. helping hand.. listening ear.. watchful eye..


its Been the longest time.. but tonight...
i felt lost.. and alone... i'm not a manic deprssent..
making something out of nothing...
how many of you know me... things i'm scared of..
the real not full of bullshit me...
look at the pictures.. paints a pretty picture dun it..
i'm beginning to contemplate...

i wish u knew me... really i do.. all of you..
i can only blame myself.. creating a skin...
painting a picture.. not that i'm about to open to everyone..anyone..

its complicated..
Tonight i felt alone... was alone..
no one to understand.. guide me...
scold me.. bring me to my knees..
and slap some fuck sense into my life..

where were you..
left so long ago.. if u were here..
things wouldn't have turned out this way..
9 years... how pathetic..
you'd know what to do.. you always do..

cross roads.. and i'm jammed in the middle..
wish i had your hand on my shoulder..
comforting me and pointing the way..
an assuring smile would give me strength..