The Pillars of Life.

I'm just rounding up my revision and its 5am in the morning.
Morning people, i have been neglecting my blog because
honestlyother than work and exam stress, nothing significant
has occurred or come to me that i felt the compulsive need
to share about.

Today is the first time an a long while that i have actually
felt blue.I attribute it to simple causes of feeling inadequate
and being lost.And during a nice hot shower it dawned on
me. Men(i am using a general term here as it obviously
involves women too) need torecognize the pillars of life.
Love (relationships) Work (well work) Community
(Social Networks) and Activities (hobbies).These are the
pillars that are the basis for our emotional stronghold.
The trick part is being able to see and balance the weights
on each of them. Weigh too heavily on one aspect and
instability occurs. We cannot look at life through the tunnel
vision of a singular goal, thatonly serves to weaken our
foundation and eventually bring about a demise.

Something happened today that made me look at myself and
question my self worth.I noticed today how heavily i lean on
relationships as a form of self validation. It is a terrible thing.
Luckily someone was thereso shed some light and at the same
time be my wet blanket.

We are so much more if we do not label and quantify ourselves
by role we seek to achieve. All that does is belittle the possibilities
of future growth.

With that said, i need my beauty sleep and i have an exam tomorrow..

You are..

Hello my mystery, our life awaits.
a treasure trove of laughs and smiles.
We are the extremes of the same plane,
the pride in a lions mane.
Too smart for mistakes
yet too silly to turn them down.
That spark in your eye and
wild playful smile say it all.
And we smile so wide ignoring the
envious that surround us.
The world can't stop this,
time won't tame us.

Tangled and twined we managed to find,
a love to die for, the kind dreams are made of.
We are the ones that got away.
We are 2 parts of the same,
never apart, never in heart.


Happy Valentine's day,
this is for you, whoever you are.

For the first time in a LONG time,
i know i'm working too hard..
i've been working for almost 4 days straight..
and <3ing every minute of it..
but with my midterms creeping ever-nearer..
i can't help but feel like i overlooked school
and got caught up in work..

well nothing else to do now but mugg and
hope my boozed up brain will make like a sponge
and soak up all the concepts and formulas..
*fingers crossed*

and i got work again on friday and 2 work
things on saturday.. oh god just shoot me now....
haha.. gotta love it man...

Good morning dreary eyed lover
i hope last night was as good for you as it was for me.
she just smiles and pulls me close,
resting her head on my chest hearing my heart race.

So serene i wonder what you are dreaming of
as i brush your hair to the side of your face.
Breathe out, i know this perfect love
buried under folds of pillows and blankets.

The amber leaves rustle outside the window
and the musky autumn air fills my lungs.
Deep breath, i fall back into you
nestled together the world is as good as it gets.

I watched the sky change shades of blue from my window..
i can still see the sun crawling up above the trees.

i finally got back from my second day of work at club nana
(thats where i'm working now for those who don't know)
at around 630am. I've worked two 10 hour shifts in the last
two days and i'm beat.

Its funny how people naturally assume that i'm born with a
silver spoon in my mouth. That i'm one of those guys who has
it easy, with a car bought by mommy and allowance from daddy.
Come to think of it, i haven't had allowance since after A levels.
Haha, God knows i'd like to be. Unfortunately it isn't so, and i have
to work for what i want.

And in the midst of typing this post, i realize it has hit a strange place.
and as such i shall end off here with one last sentence.

'Rarely do people appreciate the hardworking guy or girl these days,
It seems we have let the all mighty dollar filter our eyes.'