Let the Good Times Roll..

I have never been one for chocolates,
but if anything best describes the past 2 weeks,
it would have to be BitterSweet.

I feel blessed and most of all fortunate to have found
someone who thinks, feels and acts on the same level as
I do. And on my part Elated to be able to reciprocate the
same kinds of affections.

Sure, distance and timing don't make it the ideal patch
of soil, but patience, perseverance and hard work will pay
off for a bountiful harvest. I.E., Farmville.. ;)

I should be sad, but my happiness Super-seeds that. The past
few weeks have really been an absolute joy and distance or not,
I'm determined to let the good times roll.

I have faith. :)

B.C.

Shards of white illuminate the room and the lucent beams cast shadows on the objects below. The shades dance against the walls, wavering ever so slightly as if they were puppets in a play. He waits and wonders, thinks and ponders, waiting for the morning to steal him away from the vivid dreams and loving conversations, leaving him without the companion of another.

The daybreak comes and he is pulled from the comforts he now holds so dear and has now come to be accustomed. The world stops for no man, but he stumbles and realizes now that the sun never really steals the dream, it merely borrows it for the day, to return it in entirety when the night falls. In saying it he makes it real, and in that he takes solace and hope, ready to face the day and whatever challenges await.

For now he looks forward to the nights, his love and the future..

If you know anything about anything at all about me, you will know my heroes. They are passionate and eloquent, and thirst to know of the world and themselves. Where enrichment and fulfillment come from experiences big and small, that touch, move and eventually mold you. It is about change.

Show me the sights and sounds, smells and tastes of who you are. Tell me stories of history and the day-to-day. Who are you? So that instead of living in my micro-cosmic world, with glass walls. That I might share a glimpse of a world, a life, and a time other than my own and apply it to mine. To be more humble, worldly and become a citizen of the world, because clearly, I have a long way to go.

So I step out of the shower and looked myself in the mirror. I'm still a little drippy as you can imagine and as I towel off I look at my shoulders and wonder to myself what they carry (figuratively of course).

Do big ambitions and more specifically mine equate to guaranteed success. I see classmates and friends who are so absolutely hungry for the career, hungry for the success. Here is my question, does desire in its varying levels determine the resultant level of success?

The two sides of the coin presented are that

1.) On many occasions it falls back to purely having proper business sense peppered with the right luck at the right time.

and

2.) The foundation on the flip side being that "Necessity is the mother of invention", and that "A dog is most dangerous when backed in a corner." You get what I'm getting at.

I myself like to take the stand that on some cosmic level it will all unfold as it was written. But then again it could just be the voices in my head masked by insecurities telling me that since I am too afraid to try and fail that I should leave it in the hands of a "so-called" Higher Power. So having isolated the thoughts, we proceed to the all important "Where do we go from here?". Thoughts examined and not acted upon are worth little more than a hand-full of beans, but i need to clarify these thoughts. Deep seeded insecurity? or Lack of Motivation?

Contemplation shall tell all..

I watch a lot of Tv, and a lot of my blog entries basically spur from hearing something insightful and relate able and letting my thoughts run due discourse down the cobbled path. Now that being said I
realize that my past few posts might have come off as overly.. how do I put this.. serious and somewhat angsty. Believe me, I don't like reading them much either, but that aside I think it is important I go back to posting about insightful enlightening things in hope that it brings a breath of welcoming uplifting fresh air to you, the reader.

What I've noticed is that the "unhappy" posts are really just the voices in my head going off and rambling about my gripes and whatnot. I want nothing more than to let you ponder the questions and make you feel empowered in the course of my posts. So there, Lets get back to posting hearty insightful, grounded posts. :)

Okay I don't think this is at ALL insightful but it might move you anyways. You know what I really miss about being with someone? I miss holding them to sleep (By them i mean ONE partner, not numerous) . For me, there is a wonderful feeling of security and warmth in holding someone and dreaming side-by-side, noses touching and sharing breaths. Having them gaze at you and smile while the Rhythmic heart beats and kisses on the forehead send them off to slumber before falling asleep myself.

That I miss..