Something doesn't feel right.. giving tuition, joining the pageant,
drowning under my work. It all feels somewhat surreal, unplanned
even. Normally i like to fly by the seat of my pants now and again but
seems to me like a lot of change, a lot of new. I need to wrap my head
around it and get busy, there are different methods to the madness
after all. Should i just smile and take it in stride, or coldly calculate
the safest way to survive the temporary lapse of judgment?

Acceptance must surely be the first step to improvement. If so,
let the journey to wellness begin.