Ordinary..?

I think this song is appropriate..
Like it.. think it means alot..
the lyrics speak volumes..
enjoi..

Whose eyes am I behind..
I don’t recognize anything that I see..
Whose skin is this design..
I don’t want this to be the way that you see me..
I don’t understand anything anymore..
In this world that I’m tired of..
Is taking me right up these walls..
That I climb up..
To get to your story..
It’s anything but ordinary..

And when the world is on its knees with me its fine..
And when I come to the rescue I get nothing but left behind..
Everybody seems to be getting what they need where's mine..
‘Cause your what I need so very but i'm anything but ordinary'

Can you save me from this world of mine..
Before I get myself arrested with this expectation..
You are the one look what you’ve done..
What have you done?
This is not some kind of joke..
You’re just a kid..
You weren’t ready for what you did..

And when the world is on its knees with me its fine..
And when I come to the rescue I do it for you time after time..
Everybody seems to be getting what they need where's mine..
‘Cause you what I need so very but i'm anything but ordinary'..

I think im trying to save the world from you..
You’ve been saving me too..
We could just stay in and save each other..

I'm anything but ordinary..

GoodBye...

I Cried a dream tonight..
U died in my arms as i held you tight..
And i let you go with all my might ..
My Tears disappear before reaching the ground..
With the Moon ablaze and the sun a dark eclipse..
Stars litter the ground, the Sky a purple and blue..
Atop a cliff i leap.. arms spread wide..
for that split second believing i could fly..
Watch as the time passes us by..
A sparrow in my hand i release to the sky..
Emptyness a soul to cry..
Love is such freedom is never goodbye..

END

ErM... Happy..? Me..? nonono.. I don't DO happy...

So the strangest thing this week... i'm ACTUALLY enjoying myself at camp.. can you believe that..?
its weird.. i dunno.. Maybe i'm in that Pre Graduating mood.. 2 weeks left and BSLC will be over..
where i go from there is.. Well not in my hands.. might get posted 2 a support unit.. or go on 2 ASLC to command an infantry unit.. or maybe even cross over 2 ocs..?
Yeah RIGHT~..! like thats gonna happen~..

Another thing.. I heard a secret.. but details aren't confirmed so don't wanna go blowing it outta proportion.. not too sure whats going on in Foxtrot anyway.. and now its just all hearsay so yah.. will break the news when its Confirmed..

This week at camp was.. fun~! Had the flu on tuesday but that passed soon enuff.. erm... Did additional Obstacle course.. and went to the tear gas chamber.. Went for my Wanderer navigation test...did Confidence obstacle course.. Tonnes of fun shit... crawling in the mud.. canvas jump..~ the GAS mask..oh COOL..~ and my group found like all the checkpoints for wanderer~! with 2 plus hours to spare which i spent sleeping under a tree~.. haha.. and i caught this HugE Praying Mantis
which i'm keeping in a pringles can..! feeding him bees...named him isaac.. haha.. He is one viscious greedy lil bastard... haha

Don't get me wrong.. not that i'm not gald 2 be home.. Ahhh.. feels good.. Probably will go skate a lil later.. ken sam and tris are throwing a BBQ later.. which HAS alcohol.. so it PROMISES to be good.. Grin.. happy national day pple.. and i'm not saying this cuz i'm all patroitic now.. enjoy the holiday.. = )

Back...

This week sure passed fast.. the usual outfield on monday and tuesday.. and Grandslam from wednesday onwards.. It just HAD to rain didn't it.. as if being outfield and feeding mosquitos all day wasn't bad enuff.. Camo on my face.. mud all over.. dirty uniform.. doing drills.. Eating COmBAT rations.. Ugh.. going for marches with our fieldpacks on.. you can only imagine how 7 smelly,dirty guys with fieldpacks and rifles squeeze under ONE teenie tiny basha in the bloody rain to try and sleep..
Its something i NEVER wanna do ever again..i'll tell you that..

Right.. went on the company trip to chevron right after grandslam..
I was on overload.. it was crazy.. i had to do the book-in\book-out book.. and plan the acts for our platoon.. and perform and item which i HADN'T come up with yet.. it was crazy.. but managed to pull it off.. and everything went pretty well.. i didn't drink a whole lot though..
maybe 7.. 8 beers..? 2 tequila shots.. played some pool .. lost a couple.. won a couple.. shared a smoke.. and i was off.. didn't know i was so tired.. dropped off at town.. walked arnd.. and went straight home..

sat on the couch.. watched some tube.. and i just passed out.. the next thing i know.. mom wakes me up the next morning.. complaining that i smell like booze and cigs.. grin.. got my morning hug soon after..
so here i am.. back home.. just showered.. still in jeans.. haha..

Checked out some upcoming movies..
Tonnes of SWEET flicks coming up.. erm..
Meet the Fockers..~ Alien Vs Predator..~ Resident Evil Apocolypse..~
harold and kumar go to white castle.. christmas with the kranks..
Oh.. oh~! & Blade Trinity..!!!
Damn i love this show.. vampires.. hot actress.. ass kicking.. cool weapons.. I mean whats NOT to like...!
anyway i'm off to grab some breakfast.. for the first time in 3 days.. i'm STARVED...

"Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you

As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die to
I'd die too"

p.s for those who got time and wanna check out sum realli cool trailers.. go to http://www.apple.com/trailers/ !

Tired...
 
 
Should have would have could have..

All the voices screaming at me...  just want to be free..
Take me back to where i came from.. lost and scared..
Look all we done crumbling upon us..
Test my arms.. kick like crazy..
i've been trying way too long..
Only push away to find you..
and i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm not yours.
Get off my chest.. the story ends
Close ur mind shelter the pieces..
i'm the one u want to lose..
No other path for us to choose.. 
 
Why am i only.. Falling softly..
Reach for a hand.. pull to the end..
Awake and see.. inside of me..
Wings Spread wide.. Fly to the sky..
 
Soaring so fast.. Spin through the sky..
Want to escape.. Is it too late..
Can u feel the clouds surround you..
Phoenix ignites and burns us through..