Anthem of our daying day..

"The stars will cry
The blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
And here I am
Pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
That's exactly
Exactly what I need

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face
If you were here

I won't miss a beat
Cause I never
Never have before"



Me and trina are no more.. !
i just thought that if u were interested enough to read my blog..
that you should know of this relevation..
i guess.. i'm not gonna be all shy or coat my words with meanings
using metaphors and smiles at any attempt to make this sound smarter than it really is..
this is gonna be a real post.. nothing more.. = )

f.y.i... erm.. i'm holding up okay actually.. it happened about an hour ago..
nice talk over the phone.. no shuoting or stuff.. clean and simple..
it hurts a lil.. i ain't denying it.. at the risk of looking whimpy..
BUT here's the thing~ if it DIDN't hurt.. THEn we'ed have a real problem..
so i figure its okay.. c",)

i just hope the pain doesn't all come down on me at once like an atomic bomb..
God that would hurt..! 1 thousand pounds of emotional wreck on lil ole me..
haha.. my fingers are trembling as i type this.. prolly a subconcious reaction to the
magnitude of it all.. The human body is a miricle eh..
its slowly easing in the pain.. kinda like adrenaline..

PLease do not sms me and send me condolences.. i RE-peat.. Don't..
i hate to be patrionised and i don't want pity..

i need my friends..
i love you all.. if you read this means you care enough..
or ur here by accident.. hahaha..




My God.. even after a breakup i'm still so full of Bullshit...
eh.. whatever..





making you smile was all i ever wanted..
it was worth living for.. and dying for.. = )

Its All About ME..

This Post is coming from a strange Place.. Not an emotional state i'm all too famaliar with..
But Hell.. I'll roll with the punches.. I Figure I Keep posting sad stuff on the blog..
yeah.. Those posts are of pure feeling.. but today... its about the stuff that makes me happy.. i shall DEEM them the " I LIKES"

i like..

My name is Earl.. is a comedy being played on channel 5 now.. Funny and heartwarming.. you can get the whole damn season off bit torrent.. it makes me happy.. Yup.. warm and fuzzy inside.. PLUS its a bag of laughs..

Going 4 Class.. i really look forward to classes nowadays.. its different.. a lil dance.. a lil vocal toning.. but all FUN.. i love that it steps out of my comfort zone a lil.. but not too much till i can't control my situation... plus.. i'm getting to know the pple in class.. so koodos..i love dance..there i said it.. its funky..

My Music.. i can't explain it.. nothing gets to me as much as music.. i love foo fighters.. !panic at the disco.. Red Jumpsuit apparatus.. they play the theme song to an everyday..

Hard gay.. Thanks to tris.. check it out on www.youtube.com.. just type hard gay english.. don't PANIC.. its not a pornnie thing.. haha.. its about a japanese variety show.. i swear its a roit.. the japanese people are just amazing..

DOTA.. i love playing dota with the boys..its a guy thing..? well so far it is.. hahax.. its just good for me to switch off my mind from a reality.. immerse myself in something simpler.. besides.. is exciting if you play against tough pple.. and you learn new stuff..

Sarah.. My Dear Ibanez Grx 60.. of course with my marshall amp and effects pedal.. Fantastic way to rock out all the tension and its a good sweaty workout too..

FAMILY Guy.. Its the WORLDS funniest animated comedy out there BAR NONE.. Simpsons and southpark can eat their hearts out.. Fans of american POP culture are in for a treat.. but if you take things seriously on any level.. stay clear.. sexist racist religous political statements made.. but if you are ready for a laugh of a lifetime here it is..

WildBOyz.. How can you not get a laugh out of someone hurting themselves..? and these guys go all out.. doing the most stupid and outragous stunts with animals and bugs.. as they SAy.. "NO one is WILDER than the WILD boyZ"

PIctuRe.. Picture posing is a rush.. i could use a lil practice but its great when shots turn out nice.. It seems super self indulgent.. but i don't care.. i'm in for the fun.. and its a BLASt.. besides its weird and strangly nice to be in a cool photo..

i can't move my arm..
struggle to drag my body across the floor..
fingernails dig in and i pull
hard so hard.. i can't get anywhere..
the room looks so 2 dimensional..

sit back relax.. its a dream...
i bang my head against the floor..
it cracks.. blood dripping between my eyes..
eyes roll up.. and the room starts to spin...

i'm upright in the chair gun on the table..
its so tempting.. boys will be boys..
i feel the resistance of the trigger against my finger..
its a challenge.. every muscle tenses..
click...

Good Morrow My Dears..

So... Whats up with this soccer yeah..? Good games and all that..?
Haha.. alright.. i'm NOT a soccer junkie.. its just never been my ball game..
i blame it on my stupid feet.. i'm more of a hands person.. = )

Well i watched the game anyways.. see what all the hypes about..
my sister managed to put a layer of polish on my fingers..
haha.. and its ugly too.. one ugly coat.. sheesh.. she could have done 2 at least..
Now there're all shiny.. *beams*
*Mental Note.. wash it off before leaving the house tomorrow*

I've been having classes on and off the last 2 weeks..
Its been so fun.. i won't deny that there were awkward moments...
but its fun~! like.. um my jazz funk dance class today..
after i loosened up and embraced it, Wicked stuff i tell ya..
i've always wanted to learn this stuff anyway..

sigh.. now i need to build a portfolio.. then maybe an adgency will take meee..
Yup.. lil OLE me.. haha.. stupid height requirement..
The world is my oyster...~! a short short oyster... Hahaha..
Nothin i can do but grit my teeth and keep pushin at it..
MmmmMMm..

Whats on my IPOD:
i've decided to put this up.. cuz.. well.. its APPARENT that no one shares
my taste in music.. So i wanna spread the good word.. (",)
maybe you'll d/l an album and like it..? whatever ur fancy..

1) The Red jumpsuit Appratus or RJA for short are a new band hitting the scenes
following the success of bands like hawthorne heights and my chemical romance..
Making waves in the States their self titled album talks about issues such as
domestic battery and.. you guessed it.. love and life.. a definate must listen..
with a good mix of guitar licks and clean vocals.. the only problem with the album is that
its been made very clean in the production like most albums now..

2) All American Rejects with their poppy lyrics and catchy guitar riffs have released a
very listenable album.. fans of their earlier work can expect the same sound in different songs..
Personally.. its just plain fun to listen to.. Happy licks and fun vocals... perfect for
bopping along the street and in the train for those long rides.. so yah..enjoy..

3) Love Muse..? muse has released their new album.. Blackholes and revelations..
Its dark .. its moody.. its Muse..

Love you guys..
Do call if ya wanna meet up soon..
my cj mates... and marist brothers..
and whoever who may not fall in either catagory..
94230198...
Ciao..

Remember..
"God gave rock and roll to us..
Put it in your Soulll everyone.."
K.I.S.S

I've Been meaning to type something to you..

Glance over your shoulder what once was no more..
so lonley you were this world was so painful..
never would you let your friends in to play..
in your garden so sweet and simple it'll stay..

Torns on the roses so delicate and sharp..
paying the piper in blood for your cuts..
drop by drop.. whats on the other side..
doesn't matter at all does it..
as long as its not here..

now you're free so it seems..
its all you ever wanted.. just remember..
your friends who watched from the fence..
we are truly sorry..

Sweet dreams yaofeng..