You know.. that story..? haha.. i don't even think it has a name..
but i'll try to describe it.. if i can remeber it right..

the story is based on weird circumstances.. so don't judge it
or make any wise cracks.. cuz its just a friggin story.. just LISTEN~!
let me tell it.. everyone's gotta be a wise guy.. = )

OKAY..
it revolves around a group of men..
who went to hell and are strapped in onto a bench..
and the table is like 2 meters away..
and they each have a bowl of food on the table..
and 2 meter spoons.. so they are all psyco moto idiots..
and they can't feed themselves..
so they bitch and whine and complain..
NO suprise there..

whilst complaining~~~
one of the men catches something in the corner of his eye..
Off in the distance.. low and behold.. is table 2~!
Convienently located in heaven.. my my..
now he squints.. expecting grand tables and all you can eat..
(you get the picture.. angels.. harps.. wine and food.. )

but..~! he see's another unfortunate bunch..
stuck in the same prediciment he and his amigos are in..
so he mutters.. bunch of poor saps..

but hold the Phone~..! everyone from the other table fills their spoon..
turns left or right.. and starts feeding his pal..~!
their white gowns may get a little messy but hey~..
everyone gets fed..!

teamwork.. its a funny thing.. it works so well..
but pple just don't seem to wanna be a part of it..

i feel like a can offer so much more to my friends and family and girlfirend..
i wana be a force in my life and yours.. and have a good time doing it...= )
if only you let me..

Fact is.. life is not a spectator sport..
life's a game.. and weather you like it.. or not..
its on ALL the time.. so its Win lose or draw.. right?
it may look clear that things are a simple win lose or draw..
but STOP~! really step back.. hold it for just a sec..


here's what i think..
some people win.. do whatever it takes..
step on friends.. lose their loved ones.. (like a friend i know)
now they have money.. respect.. and they have won..

life isn't about winning at all.. is it..?
its has and always will be.. about how you play the game..
much love.. from the ever yakkin..
ME... hughug kiss kiss..





and joe joe..! so gald i called ya man.. you know i'm there for ya~..

Everydays' a struggle..

how's your day..? could it be like mine..? you know..
obstacles in life, family, work and love crop up sometimes..
why does ot feel like it happens more to me..?
it could just be that i'm selfish and
i sympathise with myself so much more than others..
i don't know..

it sucks.. its like non stop.. one after the other..
*breathe deep* try to relax..
but the waves keep rocking the boat..
and i.. am at the mercy of this roller coaster of a ride called life..

why can't things work out EASIER..
i didn't say easy.. but just easier..~
i'm an honest dude.. easy on the eyes.. pretty sharp too..
don't i get a break..? man.. why do i even bother..
its like talking to a wall.. the sounds just bounce off
and come back to me..

sigh..
just shoot me.. for god's sake..
put a gun to my head and yank the trigger..
cuz its crazy~.. how can people live life like this..
every damn thing you have to fight for..
just to be happy..

happy.. what a price to pay..

Let it Be

When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

How Wicked..

its so strange.. i was reading ronghui's msn nick..
it says.. "it'll stop hurting, once i get used to it"
Wow.. that really hits a chord..
messages really come in different shapes and sizes..

SOrry to hear whats going on buddy..
i don't know but i hope things are fine.. = )

sometimes.. when u hurt.. getting used to it..
and denying it TO hurt.. doesn't get us anywhere..
aknowledge the hurt.. don't deny it..
love ya mates.. = )

Looking from the OUtside In..

I'm normally not the type to watch chinese shows..
but mom happened to switch it on.. like most shows its about family..

Men have it tough.. we try to do so much for the ones we love..
and its scary to share our worries with the ones we love..
So this guy.. he's a good man.. works hard.. mild demior..
loves his family.. and is filial to his parents..

now he's going through a rough time.. dad passes away.. lost his job..
and wife suspects he's having an affair..
and he has to put a a strong face.. and his wife isn't making it easy..
she doesn't trust him as far as she can throw him..
cuz she has a ll these stories in her head about him being a cheat..
and a liar amongst many things..

He's where it hits home.. i feel many of my friends think i'm this and that..
when i'm not.. = ).. so let me tell you a lil about me.. things that u might
have gotten wrong in the past..

that i'm a ladies man.. i know how to be flirty, and the right things to say.. but i don't.. haha.. hard to believe maybe.. i dunno.. actually i'm really nerdy and personally i think "getting with girls" is low.. i hate it when other guys do it.. can't respect that.. altho i may say otherwise sometimes..

That i have everything under control.. and that i haven't got any problems.. truth is.. if you have problems and ur willing to talk about it.. ur better off than me.. cuz i LIKE to act like everything is just fine and dandy all the time.. but sometimes.. i have my fair share of low lows.. so there.. i STILL give good advice tho~.. = )

That i don't care about my friends.. THIS one.. here's the thing.. i guess i don't really know how to be a good friend.. and i apologise if sometimes i don't do right by you guys.. i know i could spend more times with you and talk to you guys more.. my marist buddies.. how much i treasure you guys.. i mean.. we grew up together.. sorry for always baggin on ya joe.. and thanks for putting up with me guys and still including me in shit.. it means the world..

here's some random rantings.. i love my momma.. yea i'm a momma's boy.. haha can't help it.. i'm a guys guy.. i love to have a drink and i'm just as clueles abot relationships as the next male.. cuz lets be honest.. u women are from a different world.. haha.. no offence.. its a joke.. i DO my best in the things i love.. for the pple i love.. just ask isaac.. we climbed our hearts out.. that was love man.. the only time u could drag us away from walls was when our hands couldn't grip anymore.. i loved climbing.. i really appreciate my girlfriend.. i know i tell you guys we have problems here and there.. and that its tough on me sometimes.. but i know what..? she means the world to me.. i'd take a bullet for her and she does so much for me.. we're in a great place now.. from here we're like a fine french wine.. we'll get better with age and time.. Love ya Babe~!

Now u know.. = )..