Birthday Wishes

Today it comes to pass the hour of birth, a moment of life. Look how we've grown, and what we've become. What the world has expected of us, and what we have made of ourselves.


This birthday like many others has crept up and passed with out anticipation or acknowledgment. Never been a big fan of my birthday. Don't want anyone to throw a fuss or make special arrangements, just wanna smile and pass the let the moment subtly pass while basking in moments of self reflection and day dreams. I will not ask for the material, it has been a long time since i have. I only ask for dreams, my dreams. Rarely come such tall orders as self fulfillment, success, happiness and love, but birthdays allow me the privilege to hope.

Happy birthday Andrew,
and may all your birthday wishes come true.


And on this day it comes to pass the hour of birth, a moment of life. Look how we've grown, and what we've become. What the world has expected of us, and what we have made of ourselves.

My Three Angels

They rest their heads upon my shoulders,
each heavy with disappointment and sorrow.
All of which lost the love of their lives,
been crying each day till tomorrow.


My mind and shoulder and heart grow numb
from consoling these angels as days ware on.
A pillar for broken hearts cracks under the weight
leaving the angels to lie in its wake.

I'm feeling expressive. Between the lines hide the truth of the mind meant to tangle and twist the thoughts of the ordinary. To tease and construe dimension yet seem so perfectly sound and paint you a picture of +A Beautiful Disaster+

Start and Finish

So plain in sight I still
.ignore.
for you the girl that i
.adore.
the months of secret
.love.
dash past your eyes just like a
.blur.
memories I lay to
.rest.
no longer stay inside my
.chest.
of my heavy heart
.despair.
for sure this life ain't
fair.

Beginning and End

The lights dim down and haze the
.edges.
of the world we see through a
.lens.
so narrow our lives it seems it would
.end.
unless you save us
.tonight.
or as soon as you can maybe
.tomorrow.
cannot come quick enough for
.me.
to be free from these
.constraints.
i cannot break that tie me to
.you.
through love and hate it all
.equates.
to a simple algorithm to
.separate.

The Cycle

In the dust it lies once full alive,
the roses wilt destined to die.
The cards fall down on to the floor,
scattered memories of times before.
And from the ashes and tears of old,
new life grows from within this soul.
That the past in all it pain and glory,
nourish our tired battered bodies.

Grant that I may seek to console, rather than be consoled. To understand, rather than to be understood. And to love, rather than be loved. For it is in giving that we receive.

We all need a little reality check now and again. (:
Here i am, supposed to be studying but I got caught up,
as usual. I'm not a Godly man, but when a verse like this
comes along every so often, I can't help but stop and
admire the truth in the word. We are in an age trapped
looking inwards at ourselves. We want new things, want
to look good, grumble at our circumstances, don't treasure
what we have and drown ourselves in self pity.

I'm not being a self-righteous pompous ass on a pedestal.
All I am saying is, look at yourself. Aren't we spoiled? It
has come to a point where we can't look past ourselves to
others. I am sad, I want this, My life sucks. All the "I's"
and "My's". I always believe in the Confucian saying,

"One who cares less for himself, has more to care for others."

And rightfully so. We must surpass self because we have
a lot in life. Nice beds, meals, phones, money in the bank.
You will never know how to appreciate anything, until
you know what its like to have nothing. Some people will
never know what that is like.

Crystal glasses..

I remember looking through Georgia's facebook profile and something she said really resonated in my mind. It was an answer for one of those interview questions that went, "if you could be somebody for a day who would you be?" Her answer blew me away. She said she would be an African kid for a day, because it would teach her to appreciate what she has.

We, and i mean all of us, live day by day doing what we wanna do when we wanna do it. Go for a holiday, buy a new handphone, an ipod, whatever choices we make we rarely give a second passing thought. Me included, sometimes I feel down about life and stuff, but fuck man, we are really all just too high up in the clouds to appreciate what we have instead of looking at those who have nothing.

I'm not an advocate, and i'm not gonna jump on a plane and dedicate my life to building shelters but think about it people, we have it good, now we just need to not be so narrow minded and full of self centered, self pitying crap to be happy. Can't have something, not happy with life, don't sit there and cry about it, do something and stop living for yourself.

Drew
XoXo