Come clean

Din blog last night.. i've not been the mood..
that night at the club.. i'm not gonna deny that
every sip helped me feel better..
slowly.. everything seemed so slip away..
out of my hands.. i needed that..

i've been raging war inside me the last couple of days..
and its out of my control..
some things you just wanna forget..
but you can only forget things in the mind..
what if its carved into your heart? soul..?
can you forget those too..?

Damn its so fuckin complicated..~
and i dispair.. the light at the end a dismal flicker..
what the fuck happened man..
all of a sudden.. BAM... and i'm thrown into darkness again..
When the person i wanna tell the most cannot ever hear this..

"i fall down to the ground,
make a heavy sound...
Everytime,
you seem to come around."
Placebo.Special k