I just got off the phone...
its 3am.. and my neck aches.. = )
Looks like i'm back to my old advice giving ways..
Its fun.. i like helping. but the thing is.. i'll put it this way..
i should start a column.. get paid.. u know...
in the straits times or sum shit.. haha.
helping out is cool... espically when i realli care..
i like happy poeple.. haha.. yah whaever..
its so ironic.. when i can't hold a stable relationship myself..
haha.. but as i discovered long ago.. i got things to handle b4
i venture there.. anyway i love doing this..

What can i say about todae..?
same boring stuff.. i din skate much...f'ed up weather...
just hung out and chatted with the fellas..
went for class that was actualli quite interesting..
much better than hanging arnd at home all dae..
watched the new GIRL skate video.."harsh euro barge"
Fuckin good.. thats all there is to it...
smith to feeble.., k-grind to boardslide..,nollie flip nose slide 22 set hubba...~!?
thats crazy shyt..
bootleg and the gold wheels video ... eh.. okay la..
bad filming... quailty.. and the skating wasn't too impressive..
watched amreican idol... man that chinese guy...damn pro...
he should audition for a comedy club instead of american idol..

haha anyway.. its inspired me to sing..
have been all night...
blue eyes blue.. hold on.. growing on me..
she's so high... californication.. jumper... beautiful day...
haven't just shut myself in a room and sang.. haha..
don't judge me man.. dumbasses...

whatever.. know you all are probably sleeping.. but..
sweet dreams anyway... i know i'll sleep well..
cuz i got something special tonight..

"i thought you were the one who'd stay forever..
but now forever has come and gone.."

"it was you who put the clouds above me,
it was you who made the tears come down'
Eric clapton.Blue eyes blue

Sleeping Awake

Okay.. this is on a much more serious note.. this may be a lil abstract.. and hell most of you who read this are gonna think that i've lost my marbles.. gone nuts.. bit the crazy farm.. read if you want.. understand if you can...

Here's something..
its 7am.. i haven't had a wink of sleep..
and its not like i didn't try.
lay in my bed for 3 hrs.. 1 hr reading..
the other 2.. well.. letting thoughts run..
not thoughts of a bad nature necessarily..
but they wern't all nice to say the least..
its strange.. this usually doesn't happen unless..
well.. nvm.. not sumthin you guys will understand..

usually theres a problem that keeps me up...
but i just can't seem to call it out.. or can i..?
deja Vu sums it up...
there is none so blind as he who will not see..
am i fogging up my mind...? why won't i deal with it..?
sometimes i wonderif its.. its destiny.. fate... or freak coincidence..
how can this happen over and over again..
the similarities are.. remarkable... even scarey..
history.. running over and over.. always there..
its like a broken record.. i wonder again..
these thoughts.. they aren't completly foreign...
somehow they feel warm.. like an old friend.. OR enemy..
this road i HAVE seen.. suprised..? not totally.. happy..?
i'd be lying if i said i've been worse...
is this the start AGAIN.. am i doomed to relive..?
maybe.. maybe.. just maybe..